okay how scary is this. some ass stole three pictures from our canoeing board just yesterday- the ones we just put up like last wed before openhouse. we didn't stick them on or anything, just kind of slotted them on the board and found out that they were missing before training yesterday.

we figured out two of the missing ones- the one with me doing pullups at kallang sdba and the other one with leqi piggybacking weiqi.. but somehow or other we just couldn't figure out what was supposed to be the last photo. you know how it is when you're just unable to recall something but if it were there you'd know that it was the one you meant all along? ah shit im not making sense but still. so after traversing repeatedly to the damned board and listing all the possible events in which we could have taken photos (see we have a sadly limited range of photos, the bulk made up of candid camp shots or guys taupok-ing, etc.) it came to me suddenly!

yeah anyway it's the photo that carol (i think) took of gao shang and i when we were on the bus to pasir ris for 2star course. the one where she's like trying to funnel glucolin into her bottle and i'm just grinning like anything next to her. i think i look particularly awful in that shot. they could've stolen something else instead, or waited till we put up some nicer ones.

okay so now its really quite strange. what would anyone want with our photos? and why those particular ones, leaving the rest untouched? i am particularly freaked because i feature prominently in two of the three pictures. wah damn scary. maybe someone just really hates canoeists with a vengeance, or maybe someone hates leqi, weiqi and i to the core (what's not to like??? gawd.) well the other possibility is that maybe someone really really loves us. i prefer entertaining the thought of that.

anyway heard that some of the canoeists' lockers have been broken into. is that like coincidence or something? well the funniest thing about it is that vania's jealous that her photos on the board weren't stolen, and neither was her locker broken into. she says she feels unloved. and especially since there're like pictures of her aplenty on the board and apparently they're all still there. sheesh, vania.

oh well.

next year's birthday present i'd like a size S thank you very much.

so you think you're happy just moving around in the crowd

exams finally ended today! wonder how i'm going to do for them. it doesn't really matter as long as i get s papers. just came back from towning with gaya. got a haircut. damn short the stylist lopped off too much of the sides. shucks. and bought craig david's second "slicker than your average" yeah. still haven't looked at it yet. im a craig david enthusiast after having heard spanish.

i think you're searching for something new

decided to change my blogging font from verdana to arial after i kinda got tired of too much verdana. i really think orchard is getting darned boring, and so is the suntec-cityhall area. maybe i should start visiting all the neighbourhood shopping malls yeah.

cuz when the music's playing it gets to me and i know it gets you too

wanted to visit voshstudio (the cool movie memorabilia store) at suntec but didn't have time. oh well maybe next time. went to peninsula though checked with the storeowner but they didn't have anymore germany jerseys. sheesh. maybe i'll get the ljungberg one when i have some money perhaps.

just close your eyes and i'll set you free here's what you gotta do

projectwork's due tomorrow i hope everything's done. still can't really get reacquainted with the fact that i no longer have to mug my ass off. it's a pretty strange feeling. but cl ao exam is coming up so i'll have to start mugging soon. pretty much looking forward to this week- what with open house preparations and open house itself. oh yeah abit of advertising yep--

dreamweaver
RJC Open House 2003
23rd Oct
10am-5pm

there. done my bit. will be going down for filming at kallang on wednesday with the rest of the canoeists. hope it'll be good yeah. can't hardly wait to get into a k2.

now slide over here just give me a chance baby slide over here

can't wait to kick some ball either! football i meant.

well i'm bent on loving bent on loving it feels like i can't let it go
when you're inside outside outside in it feels like i'm losing control


donrichmond \\ b e n t

how the hell did we wind up like this
why weren't we able
to see the signs that we missed
and try to turn the tables

i wish you'd unclench your fists
and unpack your suitcase
lately there's been too much of this
don't think it's too late

nothing's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday i will

someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when

well i hoped that since we're here anyway
we could end up saying
things we've always needed to say
so we could end up stringing

now the story's played out like this
just like a paperback novel
let's rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a hollywood horror

nothing's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday i will

someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that

how the hell did we wind up like this
why weren't we able
to see the signs that we missed
and try to turn the tables

now the story's played out like this
just like a paperback novel
let's rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a hollywood horror

nothing's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday i will

someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
i know you're wondering when

nickelback \\ someday

she got out of town
on a railway new york bound
took all except my name
another alien on broadway

there's some things in this world
you just can't change
some things you can't see
until it gets too late

baby baby baby
when all your love is gone
who will save me
from all i'm up against out in this world
maybe maybe maybe
you'll find something
that's enough to please you
but if the bright lights don't receive you
you can turn yourself around
and come on home

i got a hole in me now
i got a scar i can talk about
she keeps a picture of me
in her apartment in the city
some things in this world
they don't make sense
some things you don't need
until they leave you
and they're things that you miss

let that city take you in
let that city spit you out
let that city take you down
for god's sake turn around

\\matchbox twenty bright lights

in com lab one typing aimlessly. so decided to blog haha. it's quan's birthday today! and nine of us got her the black daytripper 25l mambo bag which she had expressed liking for. its damn nice and she likes it alot so that's really good haha :]

project work now and our group doesn't have soft copy so we can't work on it. which explains my blogging yeah. yesterday's ponning stint at home was particularly fruitful. i managed to finish geomo one, couple of donne poems and some trigo. not bad. but i always regret that i don't start earlier which sucks when i actually realise it. anyway gotta mug and then can play from oct 21st onwards so thats not too bad.

but i doubt i can get my s paper(s)? oh shit. nevermind.

spent a bomb on ear cartilage piercing. i guess that's why it was so surprisingly painless. anyway yeah and i'm living testimony to the fact that you probably wont go blind and all the hit-a-nerve-and-go-blind stories are a whole load of bullshit anyway. yep.

man i can't wait for the exams to be over. i have this entire list of things to do and buy and so on. ohh yeah one of the first things is to stay over at someone's house where there's scv and catch the bayern munich champs league matches live. yeahhh after two matches they're top of group A man. that's the way.

GO BAYERN MUNICH.

and then i'll go get my roy makaay bayern munich jersey, and my fredrik ljungberg arsenal jersey with gaya who's gonna get the thierry henry one. shit i'll be broke. life without exams would be absolutely fabulous! and maybe life with lots of money too!

well then. suffering from withdrawal symptoms of no football. sigh sometimes i wish i had more time then i'd accept the offer to train with ite bishan. but it clashes with canoeing so that kinda sucks. oh wellus.

will blog sometime again!

till then-

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i'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless lost under the surface
don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
every step i take is another mistake to you
caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow

i've become so numb i can't feel you there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought i would be
has fallen apart right in front of you
caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
every step that i take is another mistake to you
caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
and every second i waste is more than i can take

i've become so numb i can't feel you there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like you

and i know
i may end up failing too
but i know
you were just like me with someone disappointed in you

i've become so numb i can't feel you there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like you

i've become so numb i can't feel you there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is everything what you want me to be

linkin park numb
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been awhile since i blogged! haha pe today was damn fun. tabletennis. played with quan and it was freaking funny hahaha. later doubles with mx and gaoshang which was even more hilarious. i think pe is simply glorious but unfortunately not many other people share my sentiments. :(

ran canal route with weiqi yesterday during one hour break. maaaann it was damn hot but we still managed to complete it in roughly half an hour which was pretty good. since im not ponning tmr i think i'll be doing weights with them again. the weights room is dominated by ruggers and canoeists. hope we don't see that chao rugger with the damn kao beh face. heard he's j3. screw him man.

mugged with canoeist guys yesterday. haha and they all drifted off after a while to play soccer. was supposed to play but had lots to mug for geog test. philip's new adidas futsal ball is damn chio yep. red+black fevernova. pretty cool.

oh yeah jus recalled what mr. reeves said on tuesday which i thought was quite funny.
"Business ethics is a contradiction. Just like military intelligence."
i'm an army loyalist so shan't comment on that. but still thought it was quite funny.

mugging mugging mugging. bad for health man its damn stressful. phy geog totally sucks la dammit. and my maths is in a shambles. its awful.

man fredrik ljungberg is damn hot larh. and i don't think he's too big in the wrong places anyway. hmmm what do you think gaya? and mx? hahahaa!

Subject: Msesed Up Ltteres.

Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at an Elingsh uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht frist and lsat ltteer is at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a toatl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit any porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae we do not raed ervey lteter by itslef but the wrod as a wlohe.

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a hundred days had made me older
since the last time that i saw your pretty face
a thousand lights had made me colder
and i don’t think i can look at this the same

but all the miles had separate
they disappear now when i’m dreaming of your face

i’m here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time

i’m here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight it’s only you and me

the miles just keep rolling
as the people either way to say hello
i hear this life is overrated
but i hope it gets better as we go

i’m here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time

i’m here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight girl it’s only you and me

everything I know and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
and when the last one falls when it’s all said and done
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love

i’m here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time

i’m here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight girl it’s only you and me


three doors down here without you
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for the nygep sec4s... the ones i hang out with...
here's perhaps the most overused pic of all time.

but i love it.



if you're game here's another one.

hey all... who wants to watch S.W.A.T. which opens this thurs 28th aug with me? man it's a police action flick it shouldn't be bad either considering it stars colin farrell! what's not to like... heheh ;) one hell of a sexy ass bloke yeahhh.

all the good guys appearing on the silver screen right about now. there's the italian job which features mark wahlberg coming to theatres in sept... man thats a movie im definitely gonna catch. oh and yeahhh xy you know what you owe me. ;) i couldn't have said it better myself.

screwed doing draft zero for pw. i think pw sucks big time man i don't see the rationale behind it. and we've got more stuff to do now that liong's gone! aargh thank god for jiahong man we need someone with that kind of brains yeah.

going to town with jo and gaya tomorrow. haha jo's gonna get a haircut! yeah man we need a change. ponytails are oooooouuuuuutttt! man. hahaha. wonder what kinda hairstyle she's gonna get. i recommend spikes. then again would i ever recommend anything else? heheh. jo says if it turns out disastrous she's gonna make gaya cut hers too. which evoked a particularly vehement response from gaya haha.

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oceans apart day after day
and i slowly go insane
i hear your voice on the line
but it doesn't stop the pain

if i see you next to never
how can we say forever

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

i took for granted all the times
that i thought would last somehow
i hear the laughter i taste the tears
but i can't get near you now

oh can't you see it baby
you've got me going crazy

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

i wonder how we can survive
this romance
but in the end if i'm with you
i'll take the chance

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

richard marx right here waiting

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i've got a new tagboard! so blow me... ;)

roy makaay! i used to hate him because he scored a hat-trick against olli kahn... while in deportivo la coruna in champs league last yr. haha but i was appreciative of his excellent striking abilities man. and now he's turning out for fc bayern... go no.10 makaay!

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oh yay finally i know how to put graphics on the page! o joy! xinying you rock!

aiyoh both my air hockey kakis not in school today. so it was quite dismal. hahaha... today was an okay day. at first i was kinda dreading the friday timetable because of the 1hr40min gp lesson and evans! but it turned out to be some colorectal surgeon giving some talk instead so it was fine. man there was PORN on his powerpoint slides! the entire lt was taken aback! the pics of surgery were fine though. guess it jus made me rethink whether my decision to stay in arts was the right one. i mean... it was always a childhood ambition of mine to be a doctor. all the way till this year when i was faced with the arts-science dilemma. sometimes i do have regrets. ya, sam, jus like you. i wonder if i've made the right choice. but i guess i should jus make the most of what i have now, which is pretty good.

the rest of the day was pretty uneventful. michael was so kind as to lend me his translations book. if not i'd have to suffer the irish brogue and wrath of mcconnell haha. i said much more than i normally would in mrs toh's lesson. as usual the class was being rather unparticipative and i kinda felt bad so i answered some of her questions heheh. i think she's quite nice really. pw observation during pw period! man the most polite and by far the most fruitful discussion we've ever had! not bad la.

played soccer with gaya after school! called it self-training. then later renji and amos and loads of other guys came along so we played with them too. hahaha hope the soccer ball's safe with renji heheh.

but there's still one thing irking me. its been at the back of my mind ever since it started. man if you ever read this i jus wanna let you know that it was all a stupid misunderstanding and that im sorry really. i mean, it's our faults, not one more than the other. ya. im not blaming you or anything really... please dont take this the wrong way. i want things to go back to the way they were before all this shit started. i really don't want to lose a friend. please please i hope this becomes fine it's really bothering me and i can't do a thing about it.

ya jus in case you read this.

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since the moment i spotted you
like walking round with little wings on my shoes
my stomach's filled with the butterflies and it's alright
bouncing round from cloud to cloud
i got the feeling like i'm never going to come down
if i said i didn't like it then you know i'd lied

every time i try to talk to you
i get tongue-tied
seems like everything i say to you
comes out wrong and never comes out right

so i'll say why don't you and i get together
and take on the world and be together forever
heads we will and tails we'll try again
so i say why don't you and i hold each other
and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven
'cause without you they're never going to let me in
and slowly i begin to realize this is never going to end
right about the same you walk by
and i say oh here we go again

when's this ever going to break
i think i've handled more than any man can take
i'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around and it's alright
bouncing round from cloud to cloud
i got the feeling like i'm never going to come down
if i said didn't like it then you know i'd lied

santana ft. alex band why don't you and i
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this goes out to her.

you know that you don't have to leave
saying why didn't i go home with you tonight

hmm abit of a guestbook problem. i've reverted back to enetation after realizing that you have to pay 99cents for the stupid signmyguestbook.com thing heheh. hey it's not about the money it's about the trouble haha. anyway enetation's currently down so keep your comments to yourself. there.

2star course yesterday, and i am totally convinced that:
1. in 1star, you learn how not to capsize, but;
2. in 2star all the way to 5star, you find new ways to capsize.

we used dancers (again!) that merrily twirled us offcourse each time we tried to do proper strokes. it was quite boring. but fun as well. first time i've been to pasir ris sea sports club... wow the sea's damn clean la. no danger of stepping on carcasses when you're launching your boats heheh. quite cool as only the girls' team had their course there. and yeah we jus had to visit the mega playground during lunch break! heheh.

went to marche's for dinner with sheil lise mz weilin micht her friend ru da huiyuan and of course sam! not all my usual clique but it was not bad la. as usual we waited for ages to go in (talk about being fashionably LATE heheh), met at 7 and went in at 8 ha. wooaahhh the food was damn good heh. but we spent alot of time queueing. at least it aids the digestion yeah. huiyuan and i had all these wonderful ideas about what to eat but in the end we didn't eat all that much after all. not bad.

ha so nice of me! ooh i've finally added links! maybe not so computer-illiterate after all. but i don't know how to upload pics. wtf.

oh yeah and sign my guestbook yup. thanks :] i even have a new one!

man had first soccer training in like, years yesterday. gaya joined! man im damn happy haha. we had lots of fun ya. and this goes out to abs- KC was there yep. we played with him too. man he's damn cute la agreed. and real nice too. so why don't you join soccer too? ;)

walked out of school with gaya to catch a cab to fort canning green. was jus telling her how i absolutely abhor it when some asshole suddenly turns up a little distance down the road and snatches the first cab that comes along. well anyway then some asshole turned up a little distance down the road and snatched the first cab that came along. ya so we were hopping mad but at least we managed to get a cab jus after.

arrived at fort canning found the rest on mats spread out along the side. watched the first ballet. gosh it was boring! i guess ballet isn't really my kind of thing, no matter what the rest of you say. ha. so aaron and i decided to accompany andrew to buy water. and instead of merely buying water, we ended up roaming ps and pilfering free water from the dispenser outside cafe cartel. aaron had this great idea that air hockey would be decidedly more entertaining than a ballet, so we headed to the arcade for a game or two. ended up playing eight games. oh gawd. the darned pucks flew everywhere. one slid most conveniently beneath the table and i had to wiggle spreadeagled under the table. since aaron and andrew couldn't fit. shit it was damn dusty la. laughed till our sides ached. most of the goals were darned own goals haha. andrew ended up with a sore wrist from the puck smacking into it most of the time. so he can't do his gp essay HA.

we returned to the ballet after a very fulfilling hour. shit la paid $5.20 for bag deposit. we were in time for the last performance though, which andrew paid rapt attention to. i didn't though. ballet really isn't my kind of thing. aaron and i were contemplating going off to starbucks but we didn't in the end. well at least it was a good class gathering and a nice way to say bye to liong. yeah.

i have two-star course this morning. hope all goes well. i need my tan! the canoeists are all losing their tans (with the exception of carol, haha). sheesh okay.

ah shit whatever am i doing up at this unholy hour blogging. heheh. a phygeog test tomorrow and i'm positive that i'm gonna flunk it. jus don't seem to be able to absorb any geomo stuff. wasn't like that for hydro... i jus don't get it. wtf.

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when we take our clothes off
don't you know the world stops
when we touch when we kiss
when we shut up for a moment turn out the light
we are reminded by the one thing forget how to fight
you and me or nothing cuz we got tonight
when we touch when we kiss
when we shut up
it just had to be you

nick lachey shut up
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dammit i'm currently addicted to this song. the chorus and pre-chorus are damn nice la. some other songs that i can't get out of my mind now:

craig david spanish
dreamz fm should i stay
don richmond bent ( i can't download this anywhere! dammit!)
jason mraz the remedy
santana & alex band why don't you and i

had a drive driven by your love
but when you messed around i lost the drive i found
thought you needed needed someone true
but you changed your mind or had i failed you

wished you've been careful with my heart
but you tore it apart and broke an angel's heart
i guess what's true has an end somehow
but i am living proof of what love is about

it's hard holding you loving you losing you
it's sad to be true and be fooled by you
i don't know i gotta go wanna know
should i stay or should i go

you played me on played me like a clown
but i feel for you even though i'm down
my heart is heavy heavy like a rock
but i am so amused you're still in my thoughts

what's done is done and i'll never feel the same
but we had some good times guess it's sad just the same
i guess the truth doesn't matter somehow
but you were living proof of what love is about

dreamz fm should i stay

screw project work man!
and balls i still don't have the guts! but i guess i was rather sad when i heard what she said yesterday. well i guess there's hope if it's "for now"... heh hopefully. shit i've fallen, and hard.

wah shit if i dont do pw now mengxin's gonna screw me upside down tomorrow. blog sometime later haha :)

nationals on for the past three days. as usual, nj swept both the guys and girls titles with 60++ points. nah no surprise. but it was pretty good, enjoying the sun sea and sand for those couple of days. had scf today. rowed t2 500m with carol. she had to replace mag for t1 500m at the last minute and i was damn worried that she'd be too tired to row well for t2 later. but gawd was it good. first for heats and straight to finals tomorrow. man i love the fcuk NJ boat. haha. as usual i was shouting like hell while rowing like when we did dragonboat earlier. i dunno i jus have to shout it kinda helps me row faster too. that's why i like 2-crew boats so i have someone to shout at because it gets pretty stupid shouting at yourself haha.

anyway i was damn pleased with t2 today we managed to shoot forward and grab a commanding lead in the beginning so we could afford to slack a little at the end. haha. towards the finishing line i was suggesting that maybe we could jus "glide through" and stop paddling. heheh. damn good hope finals are even better tomorrow. think im gonna take some creatine before the race.

not bad we did better than expected. both the girls' team's t1s and k1s are into finals, besides me and carol's t2. but the guys didn't do too well. heads up man at least you guys tried your best. we are gonna take the guys and girls titles for nationals next year man.

tomorrow's the open events as well. hope the j2s do well. especially lay may and huilin who came down to support us today! you go man! yeah!

gryphon canoeists go, row, get the flow.

hey in the media centre now ha. kinda stoned i really should be at chinese now but i got aaahhnnndrew to tell laoshi that i was off to canoeing. hope i don't bump into her later yeah. hopefully gonna donate blood later. i don't think it hurts, really. everyone keeps taking second looks at me because of my hair. well anyway i hope thats good. haha how nice of abs to say that i look "DAMN good!!!" im so flattered man thanks lots! ;) as long as KC looks good hah. yeah anyway.

i think i kinda blew my chance. shit she was in the library jus now but i didn't do anything about that! it was like a golden opportunity and as usual i passed it by. ha. shit where are my fucking guts i hate this it's like i wanna go up to her and say something but i'm jus too afraid. shoot. how??

anyway yeah wonderful sharon's gonna teach me how to change templates. im sucha friggin loser i don't even know how to use a template from somewhere else. in a rather self-depreciating mood today oh well. yay sharon taught me how to change template. she rocks man.

ah well.
it's been quite confusing. what should i do now? all this is fucking getting to me... awww this sucks. i don't know whether it'll work out man. i want it to!

desperate for changing
starving for truth
closer where i started
chasing after you

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

forgetting all i'm lacking
completely incomplete
i'll take your invitation
you take all of me

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

i'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
i don't know what i'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

hanging by a moment l i f e h o u s e

hey haven't blogged for a long time. jus finished common tests today- geog as the last paper. hope i manage to pass at least two subjects! shit if not i'll be suspended from canoeing. but i think passing two shouldn't be a problem. at least, i think.

went to town after last paper today with lingli guan and cheryl. spent most of our time slacking in far east after a heated debate over whether to watch finding nemo or charlie's angels. in the end we didn't watch either, but jus as well since i've already watched nemo twice and have no vested interest in the angels.

saw lots of people- an entire barrage of cjcians and later a multitude of other-jc-people. lots of njcians too heh. splurged 42bucks on a nike no bounds dri-fit shirt. shit damn spendthrift i tell you. oh well. ya thats all for now i guess.

aahh trace you owe me something now man ;)

hey wow i found the nj 35th sc website haha. it's accessible from the nj webpage and it's got summer nights dance instructions! now if only they'd put up instructions for this year's mass dance as well... yeah and ahem haha a certain 5th house rep hailing from solaris has managed to get himself prominently displayed on the front of the nj Integrated Programme design sheet... hmmm. ;)

third water training yesterday. did time in a t1 and was doing 2k warmups around 12+ when i saw the nj j2s in spanking new crafts. think nj's got new boats or something. the new crafts look damn cool- shiny and brightly painted and all. they even have yellow ks! i think they're ignoring me but i guess i understand why. oh well.

capped in the darned t1 while doing 30 hard strokes. was feeling quite accomplished for only having capped in a t1 once, back in nj, then mag cut into my lane. i momentarily lost control and went under. shit. gee the rain yesterday was real heavy. especially when we were rowing in the direction away from sdba- the hard droplets kept pelting my face and i couldn't half see. as usual, direction was screwed up. hah.

but at least i tried my hand at a k2 for the first time. when i first got into it it was so damned unstable and i kept thinking that lyd and i would probably cap in no time at all, but we managed to row about 2k and back without capping! abit wobbly but still. haha. at least my capping record for ks stands at zilch. hahaha.



you say one thing
and then i go turning around again
working things over better left unsaid
spinning around in my head
taking a moment too personally

i have told you
just half the words
i've wanted to get to you
fear of rejection keeps my heart at bay
feelings i'd rather not say
i'd rather have you close
than never at all

but every now and then
when my world is closing in
i feel you breezing through my mind
i can attempt to close my eyes
i can avoid the wrong or right
but something deep inside says
my heart wants what it wants

darren hayes the heart wants what it wants

went for first water training yesterday. i forgot whether we were supposed to meet at 10, or 10:15, or 10:30am at kallang mrt. didn't dare to be late because i remembered hearing rumors that for every 5 min we were late, we would have to do 50 pushups. so i reached kallang mrt at 9:55am and waited for a very long 35 minutes for the next canoeist to come. shit. no wonder i thought 10am was a little extreme.

went for first water training yesterday. i forgot whether we were supposed to meet at 10, or 10:15, or 10:30am at kallang mrt. didn't dare to be late because i remembered hearing rumors that for every 5 min we were late, we would have to do 50 pushups. so i reached kallang mrt at 9:55am and waited for a very long 35 minutes for the next canoeist to come. shit. no wonder i thought 10am was a little extreme.

it's kinda stifling at home. got nothing very much to do. i've finished revising two chapters of econs! hah! now there's only elasticity of demand left. it's rather strange, actually. just when o2's finished and i was hoping to get a chance to know my new class in rj better- there's this enforced holiday thing. which doesn't really help my cause but still- sheesh.

wonder what everyone else is doing? i think most people are grounded too shucks. was actually hoping for a 03A01 outing next week to breeks or something like that but have a feeling that most won't be able to turn up. what's the point of a holiday when you can't go out? hmmm really shouldn't be complaining but this is how i feel.

jus heard from iso that nj o2 was a blast. well at least the 2nd day of o2 was a blast. haha that's real cool! kudos to the o2 committee and all the o2 ogls heheh. apparently there were lotsa water games and stuff? man we didn't have those in o1. but still- glad to see that o2 in nj was a success! :] returned on monday since rj finished early- met up with shiyu zhiwei winnie liwei and revisited our old class! damn cool man. long live 03A01. did lots of nice cheers that i'd half forgotten about like the rip and roar cheer- and of course my two favorite cheers, the red and white cheer and the yaaaahhhh cheer!

hahaha and of course the fab mass dance- and i still can't get some of the moves for "the tide is high". hey man some of you njcians better teach me sometime haha. think nic, jiing shyuan and mervyn (the aqua house capt) were quite surprised to see me back. hopefully it was a pleasant surprise haha. mervyn even thought that i wasn't in nj any longer because i couldn't get in, and urged me to appeal till i managed to tell him that it wasn't because i couldn't get in. heheh.

went for a walk round nj with liwei while the njcians were having og session. one of the walks we normally have, like after basketball training or something. but this time it was different. no longer a student of the school. the memories will always be cherished. man the three months were one of the best times of my life.

haven't posted for quite awhile! well anyway i've got all the time in the world on my hands now- due to the week-and-a-half-long break caused by the sars outbreak. it's pretty serious, much more than i expected it to be. jus a simple prayer that the viral outbreak will be stemmed as soon as possible and the sick will be healed completely.

the glorious three months at njc have finally come to an end. i have pretty mixed feelings about it- part of me wishes i'd never put down rj as my first choice, especially after looking at all the photos i've amassed over these three months. however the other part of me feels that it's good that i've named raffles as my first choice, because i still owe miss teo two e.lit assignments -shhhhh. but you weren't supposed to know that.

six points! hardy har har! six A1s, two A2s and two B3s, inclusive of '01's chinese. guess it's okay, but maybe i got my hopes a little too high. well actually thinking back i shouldn't have expected much from chem and phy (my A2 subjects) since i'd only completed selected chapters from the textbooks when i sat for the Os. :] s-l-a-c-k-e-r. yes i know.

but overall i'm okay with my results. not ecstatically happy, since i've got this nagging feeling that i could have pushed myself a little bit harder and finished mugging those two sciences and perhaps get two more ones. but it's over and done with. oh wellus. one milestone behind me.

and now i'm faced with the dilemma of whether to stay in njc or leave for rj! it's not a question of patriotism/ passion/ love for the school -ahem- here, since i'd definitely pick nj any time over rj then. but the thing is, as zhiwei has mentioned several times, that there is definitely a difference between the standards of these two colleges, which is especially evident in e.lit. and i don't feel challenged enough in nj e.lit, to tell the truth. (though i'm very challenged in physical geography, which i know absolutely nothing about. sucks to combined humans) and ever since the rj open house i've wanted to go to rjc! gee- the atmosphere seems pretty lively and all. awww shucks i can't decide. leaving nj means forfeiting my chances of council, and i know i stand a pretty good chance at gaining the humans scholarship there as contrasted to rj. maaaaaan i'm in all of a dither.

and i've grown used to and adapted to people in njc- and even gotten to know a substantial number of councillors and house reps. talk about politics for campaigning. ;) oh and before i forget- nick foo's handshake has a marvelous effect on my bball shooting abilities. he joined us for a spot of bball after school on thurs- and jus before he left he came over to me, extended his palm to shake my hand, pat my arm and wish me "all the best for your results tomorrow". haha and my next coupla shots went in! heh.

oh yeah my friend just called and told me that in rjc the students are so smart that the teachers sit round and have tea breaks all day. is that true?

i got accosted after school by canoeists- which kinda ruined my day. earlier, i kind of thought that i had gotten everything worked out fine- that i'd announce my plan of quitting canoeing tomorrow morning together with peiling, so i'd be able to run for council with no worries. well anyway it didn't turn out like that. coming down the grandstand to meet jingying for touch- i wanted to try it out- i bumped into vivienne and some ex-canoeist girl called tanny or something. and they were coercing me into not quitting canoeing- saying stuff like we need you for T1 or K2 and we've already included you for SDBA competition and stuff like that. haha but one thing good about all that is that it makes you feel all-important and needed and very in control. ;) but that's not the point.


and to make things worse- they called two other seniors over and continued their tactics of making me stay in canoeing. so it went on and on for about half an hour, i think. and i've realised that canoeists in general quite detest student councillors- gosh minyan was quite brash about the SC which made me feel even worse- knowing that i'll probably be hated by the canoeists when i run for council. darn!

a very pissed me then retreated to the canteen after managing to shake off the canoeists with half-hearted promises that i'd tell them my decision by tomorrow. supposed to meet liwei to discuss the hssrp proposal but didn't have the mood for it, and entirely neglected the fact that i was supposed to go for touch practice too. but im really thankful for kelvin and this house rep, stella who came over then and they gave me some guidance on how to deal with my situation. i mean, hearing it from a councillor himself and a house rep- it makes you feel better cause you know that these are people who've gone through the process before.

quite looking forward to the reunion at ms. lee's house tomorrow- it's been quite a while since i've seen some of my ex-classmates! like you, sam! and huiyuan! the other hy i know! but that's another story. ;) well i hope it'll be fun. and that we'll all enjoy ourselves. and have a great time. yeah.

saw mr barber today for hssrp stuff. quite a number of us are pretty interested in it. but i'm not sure whether i'll be staying in arts or science- so i can't exactly make my decision. one of the projects that appears rather appealing is the one titled "political participation in singapore". and there's another one about the European Union, which sounds kinda good too. wellus. and i brought the book of hssrp reports we received a couple of years back during a symposium which we apparently went to. and barber was most delighted to see a paper titled "tourism and sustainable development"- realised it was on page twenty-seven, and eagerly rifled the pages to get there. geography teachers are all like that.

played a spot of basketball in the afternoon while waiting for huifang and liwei to end their general studies lesson at three. at least the teacher was so kind as to release them early- which is probably the case when you have only two students in your class and two hours face-to-face (especially with SUCH people ;) ) with them is more than enough to drive you nuts. oh yeah! and before i forget- liwei had a massive sneezing fit during math c lecture today, which caused miss chan to cock her head enquiringly at the commotion at the back of the LT, and ask very politely, amidst our stifled giggles, whether she would like to leave the LT. who wouldn't? so she did. heh.

those NJcians reading this- present and perhaps, even, future- VOTE ME FOR COUNCIL! heh! you've heard me at speakers' corner and you know i'm an extremely pro-NJ person! hahahaa! just taking this opportunity to plug my prospective campaign. oh yeah i'm campaigning with liwei- y'know, two for the price of one. that sorta thing. and theresa has been appointed our campaign manager! ha ha! yay.

hey! im in barber's geog lesson now, but you're not supposed to tell him that. well actually im multi-tasking- trying to source pictures of the costa del sol, AND typing this. sheesh i think i ate too much during lunch. darn. i shouldn't eat this kind of thing again. but we have a free period later, just after geog. and guess what we're gonna do? we're gonna play bball! heh heh. i hope i don't get certain ex-classmates jealous. ;)

i still haven't found a darned picture of the spanish beaches. awwww shucks.

mr barber's asked all of us where we plan to go after the Os results are released- and the unanimous response was that we'd all stay where we were. and he went "what'd happen if raffles... or whatever that place is(HAHA!) invited you over?" no prizes for guessing what we said! ;)

yeah! i wholeheartedly agree with thee, alexis! HWA CHONG mass dance CANNOT MAKE IT! heh heh. and like you, i feel bad about saying this, but it's true! sorry, all the hwa chongians out there-- :] i mean, like, yeah, nj mass dance this year is pretty tight- with the seven-minute combination of songs, which is damn funky. and to have nick foo teach it- man that's super. cuz he can really dance. and i really mean that. he's got tha groove!

chinese new year? pretty uneventful. first day devoted to visiting the hordes of father's godbrothers and godsisters and mother's sisters and brothers and second cousins and all that. you know, those relatives whom you see like, once a year during cny. yup. well at least there was a bountiful harvest in terms of hongbaos. so that's not too bad. :þ

back to school tomorrow, after a long weekend. it's kinda peculiar- i actually look forward to going back to college. i don't know why- i seem to be quite enjoying the college life. and of course there are the friends and the classmates and the cca mates and all the cool folks i see round each day. man i enjoy school. :] at least for now. been in constant contact with liwei during the three days of cny, through smsing. gosh i think i've used a Great Many messages in the short period of 72 hours. shit. i shall have to abstain.

hmmm i've got a comments system up and running, if you can see the faint blue words just above the date (not those below) of my entries- click on them and you'll get this response window. yup. so for those of you who've been pestering me to get a blogback thingy- here it is! heh heh.

yep CNY eve today- attendance for college celebs was rather dismal. coupla classmates went back to malaysia- some skipped to visit their sec schools- and the rest of us kinda drifted away after the papercutting/ firecracker competitions were over. well anyway it was wear NJuniform day 2 for most of our class, which was pretty good. and winnie, huifang, liwei and i decided to bring school ties and couple them with the uni for photo taking. well i didn't have a school tie, so i asked khalid to lend me his acs one. and guess what? yep he forgot. haha. oh well. at least zequan managed to wheedle an sji one from some guy, whose name i know not, and whose name she knows not too. clever! or charismatic, perhaps. ;) you go, babe! so as usual we took our 'dao' photos, failing miserably in almost all our attempts for that ever-elusive nonchalant air. p'raps i'll post the photos here when i get them developed. yep.

and our firecrackers ended up resembling a lantern of sorts, and we were seriously contemplating keeping the wire-and-cans structure just in case we had any lantern-making competitions in the near future. poo. and we didn't even finish using all the coffee cans! oh wellus. in any case, the caffeine overdosage we all sustained in the past week didn't help in keeping anyone awake during math lecture.

and guess who was in charge of th telematch? darn DARN AAAAARRRGGHHH i really should have volunteered to take part for aerius! heh. forgive that momentary outburst. sorry :]

crashed hwachong for their bazaar with the nygeppers. cool man. a bit apprehensive about going in at first since i was wearing nj uni- but it didn't seem to matter very much as hc seemed to be teeming with people from all the colleges, most pointedly dressed in their college unis. it was damn crowded, and real noisy, but the good thing about it was that i got to meet many of my ex-classmates, including qing who was dressed in a, erm, kinky RV uni -sorry RVppl! no offence! but that's what the guys say! ;)-, and sheila! hey sheil! i haven't seen you in, like, eons! my pootiful seatmate! and you owe me the cd -winks meaningfully- wellus.

then went down to orchard, where the whole lot of us met sze and xinying. and went to kfc, and then bowling. well at least we meant to bowl, but the queues were a little too long. um. so we walked to taka, where i saw practically half of NJC, including shiyu and winnie. :] and some j2 guy waved to me, but somehow i don't seem to recall him. strange.

and liwei appeared! like, POOF! with her friend. coooool. and so we walked around, and while making our way up to the library@orchard- guess who we met? yeeeeeahhhh we met philibert. ha! always bumping into him at taka. actually this's only the second time, but never mind. :þ and he was with phil and some other guy. no hsiang yang! supreme sadness. :( oh well. haha.

it's damn hot today- and i had canoeing prac in the morning. arrived at the bus stop outside my house just in time to miss the bus, and i got all worried that i'd be late and die a miserable death at the hands of the canoe j2s. but the next one came along after a bit, and i discovered that my senior was on it. and that was good. and neither was i late. :] then liwei came rushing up to me all flustered and complaining that she hadn't worn shoes and that she'd seen this j2 wearing running shoes and what would happen if we had to go running as she had slippers on. well it turned out that we didn't have to run after training. no cool-down! which was great, since in njcanoeing terminology, a cool-down is a euphemism for a Run On Sheares Bridge.

my first time handling a T1 today, which is a single-seater canoe, and i promptly capsized near the police coast guard area after wobbling around a bit. luckily my nice senior helped to right the boat quickly and i got the hang of balancing the canoe after going back to shore and readjusting the footrest further, which seemed to have been a major contributing factor to my imbalanced state. i mean, the canoe's. to my relief, i wasn't the only j1 who'd capsized. practically all the other j1s did too, and some, multiple times. :þ and i shan't embarass anyone here either.


Anthem for Doomed Youth
Wilfred Owen
What passing-bells for these who die as cattle?
Only the monstrous anger of the guns.
Only the stuttering rifles' rapid rattle
Can patter out their hasty orisons.
No mockeries for them; no prayers nor bells,
Nor any voice of mourning save the choirs,--
The shrill, demented choirs of wailing shells;
And bugles calling for them from sad shires.

What candles may be held to speed them all?
Not in the hands of boys, but in their eyes
Shall shine the holy glimmers of goodbyes.
The pallor of girls' brows shall be their pall;
Their flowers the tenderness of patient minds,
And each slow dusk a drawing-down of blinds.


i quite like war poetry- ever since i scored 21 out of 25 in a war poetry assignment waaaaaay back in sec2 -haha- and i'm pretty glad that we're revisiting it, well at least certain poems, in nj e.lit. cool.

yeah hiphop lessons are tomorrow! how cool is that. hopefully i learn something eh. haha.

feeling pretty tired after an exhaustive land training session for canoe practice. circuit training, really, which consisted of like fifteen or so stations specially designed to "work every major muscle group". hyper extensions for the back, oblique crunches(!) for the abs... you get the idea. Three reps, even. water training yesterday wasn't that tiring, or so i felt. in my opinion the most tiring part was the sprint from the bus-stop to the seasports centre. oops. hahaha. well we the j1s in njcanoeing are supposed to be concentrating on mileage right now so i guess that's pretty okay. but our canoe kept veering to the left in a most pronounced, deeply exaggerated way yesterday. think it's something to do with having a weaker left arm than the right.

school was pretty fun today- despite the fact that it was a thursday, the day we officially end at five. arrived in school at seven am and rushed my math homework. when practically the entire class was at the grandstand we made our way along the side of the college and up the slope to the parade square. to our utmost dismay, we realised that assembly was to be held in the hall instead. Which was quite a distance from the parade square. And so we ran to the hall and made it to the stairs just in time to hear the band merrily strike up the national anthem. even nick foo was late! ha.

we had e.lit with mr. dio first thing in the morning, and on my way to the LT i spotted the vice-cap of the Yellow -go figure- house scrutinizing his house board. which kinda made my day. :] anyway yeah we went through more literary devices during e.lit lecture- and i was pleasantly surprised to see the passage from Romeo and Juliet in which the sod Romeo is whining about Rosaline's apparent lack of interest in him. So there. you know the one that goes o brawling love blah blah? and still-waking sleep and cold fire and all that stuff. well mr. dio used it to illustrate the idea of oxymorons. and he had the LT in hysterics when he explained choice of words which were acceptable and those that were unacceptable, while loudly considering the possibility of whether to use fuck or copulate in a sentence, and the possible undertones. hmmm.

and then we had math. ms. chan was most displeased with dear old douglas and bemoaned the fact that she'd be seeing him for the remainder of the three months in nj. she even voiced her opinion that he'd be better off back in tchs. no kallang wave today, though. the class was pretty engrossed in the tutorial for partial fractions, if not we'd have to take a quiz on indices surds logarithms and what-have-yous. no doubt about it, we preferred the tutorial. :þ

break- liwei and ailin swapped uniforms. liwei has absolutely no RV look at all! but ailin could pass as an andersonian. haha. i never want to wear th RV uni after hearing what some j1 guys at canoeing one-star course said the other day- about it being, y'know, sorta kinky and all. nurses' uniforms indeed. most suited for guys' kinky fantasies.

econs. tutor's got a haircut. nothing new, excepting that. well during lecture mr. bryan ang screamed at us all again, for "strolling into lecture." any surprise? nope, not at all. a new female lecturer for econs, but i don't know what her name is. she's okay, though. and doug slept through lecture. again.

i almost fell asleep during GP. was pretty bored. i don't know why- but i thought GP'd be a subject i'd enjoy, and i don't seem to be getting that sort of feeling. ha. there didn't seem to be anything better i could add to the discussion, though. and we ended up discussing gangs of new york in relation to the school mission of loyalty with integrity, and i didn't even watch the darned movie, so i felt pretty stoned. pooh.

common lunch, and i came up with a wonderful perceptive theory on why a certain student councillor (hmm he's been mentioned earlier- go figure) spikes his hair up straight. so as to add an inch or so to his vertically-challenged frame! haha! it kinda works, actually.

human geog- mr. barber's a great teacher. serious- i really enjoy his lessons, even more so in comparison with lessons by his phy geog counterpart. and when he went through the name list today he mispronounced siqi's name as see-kee which was pretty hilarious. he's euro-centric, as self-described. haha. and he gave me 20 out of 20 for my very first human geog assignment! cool huh? never get that sorta thing in mrs yak's class. any guesses for what topic it was? yeah- it was TOURISM! the only topic i ever did in exams for geog elect papers in sec3/4. hah.

gosh the anti-science cheer from veejay is pretty cool! the one that goes we clap our hands and stamp our feet... it's damn nice! did it for classmates today and they were pretty taken by it. heh arts fac is da way to go! we had year-ones-meet-year-twos session today- our buddy class was 02A01, which wasn't much of a surprise. four guys in the class- slightly more pathetic than ours. well so the seniors sat us down in chairs in the centre of their civics class and began distributing cheezels and oreos and all sorts of junk. and in despair we started chanting the mantra height-and-weight among ourselves. as you see, nj's got this obsession about physical well-being, which explains the strenous PE lessons and the fact that they measure BMI besides height and weight. so we're gonna be measuring those two quantities sometime next week, and no one kinda dares to indulge. for this week, at least.

signed up for hip-hop classes in nj- cool that they're actually offering it. and dragged liwei along at the same time. she vehemently protested, but helpful huifang aided me in writing her name down on the registration list. hahahaa.

ohhhh just returned from church encounter weekend- spiritually rejuvenated but physically worn out. and i haven't completed my human geog homework, or my algebra assignment, for that matter. shucks.

after quite a bit of thinking, i've finally decided that i'll officially join canoeing. i was actually debating whether to do so or not, considering the punishing training regimen that all njcanoeists are subjected to. training thrice a week, four times for seniors. what luck. two water training sessions at kallang basin and land training in college. and i've heard from kia min that they ran the length of sheares bridge after wednesday's water training session. ooohh.

well anyway i badgered and pleaded with liwei the whole of thursday to join canoeing with me, until she finally relented after i hinted at the limitless benefits of canoeing. eg. great tan, hot bod, hunky seniors ;) you get the idea. i think she was kinda won over by the latter. well liwei, let's hope wenkai grows taller eh? ;)

we were also talking about the "best friend" theory that seemed to be rather uncannily accurate. you know how it is when you like someone and that someone promptly falls for your best friend. and you start getting all green-eyed and envious. so liwei and i have decided to be, errr, best friends, so that the theory will work out for the good of both parties. heh heh. you know, hu4 xiang1 bang1 mang2? :]

thursday! it's actually supposed to be the longest school day of the week- with lessons officially ending at five and no free periods in between for us. but anyway today was a Good Thursday- e.lit paper one teacher was on maternity leave, and our human geog teacher Mr. Barber(!) had a course on. something like that, anyway. yeah so we had the whole time after lunch free, till pe period at four, which is the sort of school day i quite enjoy.

well anyway my math tutor is this motherly figure- she sorta reminds me of a matron or something like, and you wouldn't believe how boring her tutorials are. so being the ultra-enthusiastic arts class we are, the entire left side of the class plotted that we would perform a long, langourous wave in unison, while the unsuspecting tutor meticulously penned logarithmic answers on the board. so she did, and so we did. then we decided perhaps a Kallang Wave would be an ideal way to end math tutorial, and douglas and zequan on the leftmost of the class promptly stood up with a grand flourish, the rest of us following suit, while the conscientious right side of the class continued working on their math problems. the math tutor turned around suddenly (she must have been suspicious) and was just in time to see jess plonk back onto her chair after her full participation in the Kallang Wave. most hilarious.

has everyone heard of the new cca that my friends and i are planning to start? it's aptly named the People-Watchers' Club, and all NJCians are most welcome to attend our meetings. Sessions are held daily at 7.10am, location being the topmost row besides the Second Pillar of the Grandstand. no prizes for guessing what's done at our daily meetings. ;) the idea stemmed from these four NJ j2 guys we christened the Fab Four (no, no association whatever to F4- i simply detest F4)-- because they all look pretty good and have varying degrees of cuteness. but i really shouldn't incriminate anyone just yet. and you might all just start jioing them. thing is, one of them was "recently attached", two are single and available, and status unknown for the last. oh wellus.

there's this j2 guy- Solaris house vice-captain, actually, that my friends and i have been bumping into numerous times daily. and every time we meet, we wave. well if i remember correctly, i waved to him a grand total of five times yesterday. it's quite entertaining, as no one seems to pop up as much as him. he was formerly from tchs-- but he doesn't fit the stereotype of a chinese high boy. rather english-looking. hahaha. and finally managed to do more than wave to him today- played basketball with him, which was quite enjoyable. he looks cool in the sense that he wears his pants baggy and has fab skater shoes. nice. :)

i've got econs homework waiting for me- catch y'all later. till then--

Toploader-Dancing in the Moonlight

we get it on most every night
when that moon is big and bright
its a supernatural delight
everybody's dancing in the moonlight

we get it on most every night
everybody here is out of sight
they dont bark and they dont bite
they keep things loose they keep it tight
everybody's dancing in the moonlight

dancing in the moonlight
everybody's feeling warm and bright
its such a fine and natural sight
everybody's dancing in the moonlight

we like our fun and we never fight
you cant dance and stay uptight
its a supernatural delight
everybody was dancing in the moonlight

dancing in the moonlight
everybody's feeling warm and bright
its such a fine and natural sight
everybody's dancing in the moonlight

we get in on most every night
and when that moon is big and bright
its a supernatural delight
everybody's dancing in the moonlight

dancing in the moonlight
everybody's feeling warm and bright
its such a fine and natural sight
everybody's dancing in the moonlight

we got the red
we got the white
we got the stripes
we got the lion on our side

wo men you hong
wo men you bai
wo men you xian
wo men you shi zi zai zhe bian

semmai undu
venmai undu
kodu undu
singam nam pakkathil

ada merah
ada putih
ada belang
ada singa di sini


just one of the cheers i like quite a bit- it's catchy, and yeah, it comes in four languages! heh that's what you get, being in njc. uhh well. but for the tamil bit, everyone gets the last line muddled -including yours truly- but somehow pakkathil is firmly etched in my mind.

more about my OG! 03A01! we've got the lamest people that ever walked the earth! And a Very Cute Lame Funny Nice OGL too, according to my friend winnie! yeahhh we rock!

well i never knew what the 03 in front of my class A01 was for- until a classmate pointed out that we were the batch of '03, which was a very astute observation on her part. or were the rest of us simply blur. perhaps. arts fac people are whoopee! yeah there are only three arts classes in contrast to the twentyfive science classes- and the enrolment in the arts classes is like, twenty-odd, which kinda resembles a gep class. cool huh.

i quite like the nj massdance- the first few days i was there i didn't really enjoy it- perhaps 'cuz i was getting all tangled up attempting the various moves, of which included the Legolas move, which jitsy would be most pleased to hear about, and the Deborah move, which was aptly christened by the dance choreographers as such due to my so-named OGL practising (and perfecting) the move every night.

more about nj orientation -click here to start- '03 later...

yeeahhh i haven't posted here in a real long time! anyway i've just finished my 5th day of orientation, which is starting to seem sorta like one of those unbelievably long church camps. well NJ's pretty cool- not one bit like what i'd heard in NY about it being incredibly boring and all. and all the stuff about we-rock.com and all that shit. whoops. haha well i'm in arts, at least for the first three months (somehow i don't think i'll be able to bear leaving my OG after Os results) and we had our first coupla lectures today! and yeah well i don't really want to say anything much about the tutors since i don't know them that well yet.

well my OG is superb! class consists of a grand total of 5 guys and 16 girls~ heh heh. and somehow i don't have to miss jits' and huiyuan's corniness so much since my class is saturated with it. orientation was pretty cool- i can now brag that i've had the chance to experience school songs in three languages! english in rosyth- chinese in NY and now malay in NJ. yep. can't seem to remember it though. i know the first line goes inilah maktab banggaan kita and the next ends with bangsa but my memory fails me for the rest of the three stanzas. and so i mouth inanely some gibberish or other while the college anthem plays.

and i've got great OGLs too! ha two girls and a guy- who are all incredibly fantabulous and somehow i can't seem to accept the fact that they're only a year older than we are- they seem lots more mature. heh perhaps we're just a little too juvenile. oh wellus. and yeah i must tell you that the guy OGL has long and curly leg hair -hahaha i couldn't resist-- been playing too many collect-a-strand-of-leg-hair-4cm-in-length games- but he's a real nice guy anyway.

hello! back from china! it was pretty cool but the toilets were shit. literally.

i could be james dean of the music scene
i could be a big star like that man called queen
i could have fly moves be a dancefloor dream
but if she can't seem to notice me
then what's it worth now

daniel bedingfield is so hot! i just bought his cd from tower records two days ago and it's damn good. serious. so much better than justin timberlake's justified which i kinda bought on impulse and because like i love you had a great music vid. i'm off to china tomorrow- nice and chilly haha. till then...

i wanna know if you’re busy
i wanna know if you're doing anything tonight
i wanna know if you missed me
i wanna know baby
i wanna know
i wanna know

bayern play lens tuesday morning 2.45am- alongside with man u vs. leverkusen and the rest.
go bayern!

heh heh. i think i've received just about all the prelim results i actually dared to look forward to. ms. choo seems to have this knack of making results sound worse than they actually are. as one of the precious few who attempted the topic "medical advances are more harmful than beneficial. discuss", i was decidedly worried when she announced that the people who did that didn't do very well. at least it turned out fine.

just watched the replay of the highlights of the bayern-deportivo match. makaay's hat-trick was a fluke! hah. but bayern's defence was disappointing- especially thomas linke. standing there like a twerp waiting for the offside flag to be raised while makaay waltzed past and fired the shot home through kahn's legs. can't believe i brought myself to say that.

19.09.2002 | It is the 93rd minute in the Munich Olympic stadium, and Oliver Kahn is making his way to his opponents’ penalty area for the third or fourth time, determined to do whatever he can to prevent Bayern slipping to defeat in their first Champions’ League encounter of this season’s campaign.

The sight of Kahn striding forward at the death whenever his team is a goal down with seconds remaining is nothing new. But on this occasion there were to be no last minute heroics. “I try and create confusion in the box, though most of the time nothing comes of it,” the man regarded as the best keeper in the world said after the 3-2 defeat at the hands of Deportivo La Coruna.

hahaha you know it'd be waaaaaaaay cool if he were to score the equaliser? i hope he's given the chance to sometime in the future ;) don't think that kinda thing has happened before.

i like his spirit. serious.

lit paper was a fiasco! guess what came out for r&j pbq? the used-to-death quote. one of the few (thankfully) that yil prides herself in knowing, albeit all too well. where is your mother? and i even thumbed through the book this morning to show her the context! poo. i guess it comes in second after you are a saucy boy but anyway that came out for midyears so it probably wouldn't make a reappearance.

maybe it goes to show that those seemingly insignificant quotes are of great importance. guess i'll be waiting for humours! madman! passion! lover! for the Os.

well anyway the prelims are halfway through- and it's evident that a greater power than i can contradict hath thwarted my intents of entering an esteemed junior college for the first three months of next year. what luck.

it's the first day of september! prelims are, err... well, about a week and a day away?
shit.

i've been in week five mode for like, one hell of a time.

anyway yeah. this is the ultimate mugging week! no internet after this! whoops.

have you ever experienced a situation where you kinda find that your morals are being slowly eroded away by the people around you- your community and yeah, basically the folks you spend the bulk of your time with. err besides parents, i meant. i guess that's what's been happening to me. some of my ideals have gotten warped and i'm finding that there are things that i now deem acceptable just because it's mainstream-- stuff that i wouldn't have condoned before this mindset switch.

and i've gone into things i know i shouldn't be going into.

anyway there's a particular issue that's been on my mind for about a month or so. initially i thought it was gonna be all sorted out, but somehow or other that just didn't happen. instead i've seemed to be circling around eternally. and right now i'm at a sort of crossroads. where the next decision i make dictates whether i climb or fall. pooooo.

i had a talk with josh at pacific coffee in parkway before service yesterday. i guess it's been something i've been putting off for a real long time. since weeks back i've been promising to email him but somehow or other i couldn't bring myself to give it up and say what i've been going through. it gets unbearably mortifying at times as well. and now it's gotten to this point where i really can't hold on any longer. there's not really anyone much i can talk to about this stuff... but i guess it just came naturally to talk to josh because yeah, i guess he'd be able to help me with this. so i did, and he did.

we talked some more after service (at spinelli, this time. -- umm guess what? i heard "i could never take the place of your man" there! way cool!) and i guess that helped clear my mind (together with a divinely applicable sermon-- thanks, God!). i guess what's leading me to hold on and not let go is the prospect of gratification. in more ways than one. that's the motivation behind the situation. it's a struggle. and i know my decision is gonna hurt certain people real deeply. i'm sorry, but that's what i've got to do. i've got to be objective and understand fully the consequences that will result after this decision.

still struggling. the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak . i'm taking this one step at a time. it helps to know that there are people around who truly care about you. feels great.

it's a case of mind over matter.

hello. guan's peering excitedly at my computer screen, saying with an air of absolute wonder you've revised? wow! oh.
well i really should be getting back to this after that most unwelcome hijacking by guan zhen. :) you should be getting back to your lit.

so she says.
so i should.

oh well.

it's e.lit now and our most prodigious class of nine, scattered far and wide around the wide area of computer lab four. this is the first (and most probably only) slacker lit class we'll ever have. miss choo's ill, i believe. we were assigned a passage-based question each. music from the calling camino palmero is blaring from a side of the lab. pretty funky atmosphere, i say.

well no one seems to have remembered the passage-based as yet.

|| bayern steals real's thunder ||

real madrid 1(figo 84pen) bayern munich 2(ballack 27pen, salihamidzic 64)

talk about domination... :) you go, kahn!

ooh there's lots of work to do. i feel particularly accomplished due to the fact that i have completed revision of several chemistry topics which concepts have somehow proved marvelously elusive the last two years. feels great. i think several teachers in our school have been influenced through seeing a bunch of sec fours kicking a ball round a field few days in a row. this morning, there was this announcement that went: football. are you suffering from post-world cup hangover? blahblahblahblah. join us on wednesday three thirty at the field in front of the school for a leisurely kickaround session. do bring your size five balls. -ooh-er!- jointly organised by miss loo and mr tang -d'ohhh- intriguing. but Os are coming! sheeeeeesh. e.lit file due tomorrow... gawd.

From a personal point of view, Kahn feels that despite his masterful performance for the national team at the World Cup finals, he will still be treated the same way by opposing fans at away matches. “Now I have stopped being Germany’s Kahn and am Bayern’s Kahn again. And the opposition’s fans will still be up to their old tricks against us.”

But Oliver Kahn would not be Oliver Kahn if he didn’t see this in a positive light. “My motivation often comes from confrontation and negative comments.” A 33 year old at the top of his profession is not easily distracted.

boy am i motivated!

2:1 against AC Milan – perfect integration

04.08.2002 | Much attention was focused on the integration of the newcomers to Bayern Munich and the Munich giants gave their own inimitable answer. New Bayern stars Michael Ballack and Zé Roberto both won free kicks following solo runs which were put away by “old guard” members Michael Tarnat (21st minute) and Mehmet Scholl (74th minute). The victory over AC Milan puts Bayern Munich in the final against the hosts of the Real Madrid centenary tournament on Sunday night.

With the untried midfield combination of Nico Kovac, Michael Ballack, Jens Jeremies and Markus Feulner, Ottmar Hitzfeld’s team got off to a slow start. AC Milan took full advantage and dominated in the first quarter of an hour. Andrej Schevchenko passed to Dario Simic on the right wing, whose floating ball to the penalty spot was sent to the back of the net by Filippo Inzaghi’s swivelling shot. Oliver Kahn had no chance of preventing Milan from taking the lead.

The goal stung Bayern, in particular Michael Ballack, into action. The new signing from Bayer Leverkusen took more and more control of the game and was responsible for Bayern’s best scenes. When he was fouled just outside the penalty area in the 21st minute; Michael Tarnat equalised with a low, hard free kick, which Milan’s keeper Abbiati saw too late.

Bayern then piled on the pressure, with a 30 yard effort from Jens Jeremies just going wide. Next, a taste of things to come for the Bayern fans. A lovely flowing sequence from Ballack to Elber to striker Zickler, who was narrowly beaten 10 yards out by the oncoming Italian keeper.

Feulner and a lively Scholl both missed taking the lead for Bayern. At the other end, a searing 20 yard strike from Clarence Seedorf was saved by the masterly Kahn. Then came the moment of Zé Roberto and Scholl. In his first minute on the pitch, the ex-Leverkusener made a solo run towards goal and was fouled. The subsequent free kick was planted in the back of the net by a curling 25 yard Mehmet Scholl speciality, making it 2-1 for Bayern.

AC Milan turned up the pressure in the final 15 minutes but failed to make any impact on the Bayern defence, with Kahn continuing in his World Cup form and preventing the Italian outfit from equalising.

Bayern: Kahn – Tarnat (46. Salihamidzic), Linke (R. Kovac), Kuffour, Thiam – N. Kovac. Jeremies, Ballack (46. Scholl), Feulner (70. Zé Roberto) – Zickler, Elber (46. Pizarro)

it's been a long while since i posted stuff here. well it's sunday 4th august, which makes it a grand total of a month and five days to prelims. awww shucks. that's like real soon.
just tried to play a shooting game found in the fcbayern website and was accosted by a lengthy list of instructions (in german, of course!), skipped it, wondered just exactly how do i do this and moved the cursor around frantically trying to score goals accompanied by what sounded remotely like a chorus of boos emitted from the speakers. no prizes for guessing what the final score was. trying to console myself with the fact that with netminders like kahn, that's pretty understandable.

and i was trying to ascertain just when kahn did away with his horrendous blonde mop by viewing picture galleries of differing intervals. i have come to a conclusion that his new do was derived in the short space of four days, between training on 4th sept 2001 and the match with borussia dortmund on 8th sept. cool. hahahaaa.

the things i do.

oh well. be back another day.

FC BAYERN vs. REAL MADRID sunday 21:30 PT |real madrid invitationals FINAL|

go BAYERN!

Soccer-Bayern recover to beat AC Milan 2-1 in Madrid

Filippo Inzaghi scored the opener on 10 minutes but free kicks from Michael Tarnat and Mehmet Scholl lifted Bayern to victory, earning them a place against hosts Real in Sunday's final.

The Italians will go on to play Liverpool, beaten 2-0 by Real Madrid on Friday, in a consolation match before the final.
AC Milan's star signing Rivaldo, snapped up from Real's Spanish rivals Barcelona, was at the Bernabeu to watch as Milan made a lively start.
A Dario Simic run and cross from the right set up Inzaghi for the first goal, the Italian international hooking the ball past Oliver Kahn from the edge of the box.
Bayern were level on 22 minutes as Tarnat was teed up on the edge of the box to lash the ball low into the far corner.
Serginho was just over the bar from Andriy Shevchenko's lay-off on 30 minutes as AC Milan came back and, after the break, Clarence Seedorf struck the frame of the goal with a powerful shot from outside the box.
AC Milan were in charge thanks to some slick passing in midfield and Seedorf forced a great save from Kahn just past the hour mark with another menacing run and shot.

Bayern kept their cool, however, and the German side clinched victory with Scholl's dipping free kick on 74 minutes.

updated at Sat Aug 3 20:29:25 2002 PT

JORDAN KNIGHT 's new single sounds hella good! it's called "like that"... maaaaaaaan it rocks! ;)

c'mon baby give it to me i wanna get it on like that
reminds me of give it to you. ah well. do download it!

it's got rather strong spanish influences... very mexican-sounding. ah cool. you can download it here- http://staceyahart.50megs.com/likethat.mp3

it's been released in the states but not in singapore. great dance grooves! im envisioning something funky with lotsa hiphop breaking like in the gity music vid... awww shucks he rocks.

error five-o-three STILL happens at home. oh well. at least that's the blogging distraction gone from my self-imposed studying regime. my parents have consented to several Good Things if i ace my prelims and Os... they involve things like kahn's jersey and i guess that's motivation enough. now i just can't get that blonde-haired blue-eyed kahnster outta my head.

wonderful. oh yeah i've completed Chapter One since the last time i posted. now i'm staring at a blank screen and wondering how exactly to go about Chapter Two. ah wellus. the whole process repeats itself. we have darned chem prac after this. chem prac is most undoubtedbly the Bane Of My Life. but actually it gets pretty quirky sometimes. flame tests were enjoyable, but i can't exactly say the same about spilling dilute hydrochloric acid on a sore finger. sometimes i doubt the "dilute" in dilute hcl.


i used to say i didn't do it but i did it
telling everybody that i wasn't with it
though it brings tears to my eyes i can feel it
and i know inside that i'm gonna be alright

| i'm gonna be alright - j.lo feat nas |

yo. trying to complete Chapter One, without very much success. it's kind of weird trying to write about somalia when the only stuff i've seen of it is "black hawk down". anyway i'm not even focusing on mogadishu here. oh wellus. i made a list of Things To Do when i got home from school today. so far i've finished about three things out of six. hopefully i won't slack and complete the rest. i've got absolutely zero inspiration. this is pretty bad.

played a bit of soccer after school today. tried out the huiqing-fengyi partnership, which wasn't bad since there didn't seem to be anything (or anyone) resembling a goalkeeper round. wonderful day for hat-tricks. it was pretty cool though. we even managed a beautiful cross. soccer's damn nice to play. okay let me get back to my essay.


to my extreme disgust, i've realised that error 503 happens at home.

ooh my blog works! error 503 popped up yesterday i was so freakin worried. oh well. back to Chapter One on Female Genital Mutilation.

what did i ever say about oliver kahn at coro? huh?? i don't know what you're talking about, grace or sze. whatever. oliver kahn's at my house. he had a rather animated conversation with xinying via msn just the other day. i should know.

minority report was a really good movie. thought-provoking... kind of like a psychological thriller. i say cruise was great in that flick. the cruise-spielberg partnership is whack!


have you ever dreamed of flying high
looking down from heaven with God's eyes
you know
we could use some intervention
children needing your protection
it's not enough to sing this song
lift the cup and pass it on

| live for LOVE UNITED |

oh well. yeah i've realised i post rather sporadically on this blog. listening to /hero/ by chad kroeger now. i think it's a really great song. somehow or other, it reminds me of ollie kahn. today was a strange sort of day. the computers in the library don't half work. it took me all of twenty minutes to find a decent desktop, one that actually possessed an internet connection, working keyboard and mouse. one particular computer actually fizzled. yeah it fizzled. jits was like turn it off, you! hurry! and i went what the #$%^& i might just get my brains fried under the table well at least i managed to turn it off with a quick toe poke.


grace's oliver and i'm kahn. sounds promising, doesn't it? well hopefully it works out, somehow or other. yeah anyway just like about the whole basketball gang's gone with the worldcup craze. now instead of the basketball court, our haunt during recess is the spot between the sci/tech block and bball court. two lovely palm trees there provide excellent goalposts. my only gripe are the multitude of stone blocks on the grass patch there, presumably Paths for Fire Engines To Take In The Event of An Emergency. well we've grown somewhat attached to these stony-faced locals, and even christened them lovingly. well i can't exactly remember their exact names. just that rivaldo happens to be this obtrusive L-shaped stone patch in front of the goal, and roberto carlos a little round dome. kinda suits him, i must say. they're pretty effective.

theflyingkahn! theflyingkahn! ooh. lovely long youthday weekend... just the kind of weekends i fancy. masquerading as oliver kahn now and xinying seems to be none the wiser. i guess that's self-explanatory.

so the World Cup's over and brazil's won. well yeah they played good and all... but i feel horribly sad at the look on oliver kahn's face after the whistle blew. to lose after such a great tournament. yeah i don't feel like saying very much about it here... maybe sometime else.

that, as usual, was silly xinying. ah well. OLIVER KAHN so rocks!! i am so in awe. his full-length diving save was spectacular... maaaaan. it's great that germany has defeated s.korea... kahn said in an interview about two weeks back that the german team's ultimate goal was to get into the finals of the world cup. maaaaan they've done it! wonderful birthday present for kahn, who turned 33 on 15th june. oh and by the way, people born in June rock. just proving my point. ah well.


oh and if anyone still HASN'T BOUGHT ME A PRESENT (shame on you) you can always get me kahn's jersey. NUMBER ONE! yeah man. okay i'm gonna play bball with the rest now.

good morning.
u forgot to log out.
bye.

just a holler to all of you out there. haven't touched this blog in eons, due to the muddled up internet connection at home. oh well. just to let you know, i'm getting broadband in a coupla days. cool. my loyalty has shifted to pacific internet. perhaps y'all could expect a more developed blog next month after i get my account. heheh. yeah well due to the unattainability of certain birthday wishes #coughh# i wouldn't half mind an official FIFA World Cup 2002 adidas football. y'know... the lovely red-gold-white one. the camera sometimes zooms in on the ball on the field just before someone takes a corner kick at times. yeah that one. heheheh. football and basketball rock.


seriously, i think south korea has gotten too far in the world cup. maaaaan and it's lotsa due to like unfair refereeing and all. whaddaya mean, calling spain offside when they clearly weren't? darn. oh well. i throw my support behind the germans now, even though they beat the team from USA which was one of my faves. heheheh. their goalie Oliver Kahn rocks. i've christened him the Rock Of Ages. he brings a new meaning to unshakeable. that means he must be hard.... um. ;)

heheh. hey. i'm back to post again, at nina's house this time. oh yes. another birthday wish could be a LA Lakers jersey, no. 8 please. the shorts too, if you wouldn't mind. kobe bryant rocks! i'm in awe. that's all i can say. xy and nina are downstairs watching the fourth quarter of the match (finals game 1, videotaped), just thought i'd pop upstairs for a bit to update this blog. ah well.


basketball so rocks. hahahaaa. in spite of the numerous sprains and bumps that come as a result of playing. anyway yes. both xy and nina are staring wide-eyed at the screen.

good morning everyone. i'm sitting in front of the computer in the sticky sweaty hot classroom of four-thirteen at roughly seven twenty-five in the morning. rachel's at the benches outside... i guess no one else is around yet. anyway. today is the official launch of my blog! heheh. it being mark wahlberg's birthday and all. HAPPY 31st BIRTHDAY, MARK! you're still as hot as ever hahaha ;). -oh those ABS- wellus. anyway i just realised that darren hayes is going to be on the "all day thursday" interview by perfect 10 tomorrow. now i'm just wondering how we're gonna catch it, because i don't quite trust recording technology anymore. i guess you know why.


it's quite funny the way i heard that d.hayes was gonna be on... i was like listening to perfect 10 last night at about the say it with music/ late night show time, and i was kinda continually hoping that one of his songs would suddenly air. but i kind of forgot about it after a while. then all of a sudden this Very Familiar oh-so-angelic voice came on... "Well, it'll take quite a long time for people to know who Darren Hayes is..." with insatiable playing softly in the background. When i heard that i kind of jolted up immediately at once, leaped to the radio and tweaked the volume control two-fold, and soaked myself in the blissful lilt of his voice. then daniel ong's voice came on and said blah blah something or other about hayes being on all day thursday this week. aaahhh. lovely. oops i meant darren, not daniel. ONG.


ooh darren you rock my world hahaha. okay i shall try to make another post later. gosh. gotta go to the audi for mdm mak's reproval #i bet# soon. report books today! what luck.

ah wellus. i'm still pretty new to the whole idea of blogging, as i'm not exactly able to access the net from home or anyth, so i can't like experiment or something for the time being. well. lately, many people have been asking me what i'd like for my birthday. how extremely strange. i don't normally get such nice requests. yeah since you all seem rather obliging and magnanimous, i guess i'd better utilise this opportunity before it passes me by.


Things / Non-Things Fengyi Would Like Very Much For Her Birthday.

1. darren hayes
2. jordan knight
3. mark wahlberg.
4. #ahem ahem#.
the abovementioned are all the non-things. i'm a long-term sort of person, NO one-night stands please.

5. urban xchange's debut release "how did we get here"
6. a hi-fi set
7. the very nice sleeveless shirt from 77th street.
8. a nice radio walkman thingamajig.
9. darren hayes' shoes! those he wore in the album cover/ shooting of insatiable
10. a leather converse basketball

am i being too demanding? oh wow. well that's all for now... as soon as i remember more stuff i'll put it on. how'd you like that. ;)


played basketball whole lots today. before school, during recess, and after school. we're complete bball fanatics.
our team kicks some ass ;) c'mon folks we better thrash weilin's team tomorrow! we rock! hahahaaa just providing a boost to morale. ah wellus. healthy obsession though. heh heh. world cup fever now. it's strange... there's what i call the coffeeshop scenario. The coffeeshop is the gathering place of ah peks, ah bengs, and the occasional white-collar worker. Eyes riveted towards the small television screen, with glazed looks in their eyes. And every so often, a collective sigh or yell will be emitted, coupled with hand-pumping actions. Really interesting. i don't particularly dig soccer... but i guess the world cup's pretty cool to watch. oh well. i'd rather NBA... thing is, i seem to be unable to tune in to any of the matches. sad. oh well.

okay i guess i'll be leaving nina's house soon with xy to head to parry pri school and shoot some hoops #what did i ever tell you about being obsessed#


mood : pooped. pretty tired.
song on my brain : "pop" by *N SYNC #hey they're not just any boyband! they're real musicians!#

ah! ooh yay. oldskoolflavor.blogspot.com. i shall officially begin blogging on the FIFTH of JUNE, which is also mark wahlberg's birthday. ooh lovely. wonderful. see. now all is good and gay. yay. i am actually supposed to be doing yileng's testimonial now, but i don't seem to have gotten very far in that particular aspect. any surprise? hahahaha oh yes y'all can eagerly anticipate the rationale behind darren hayes' heart! ooh yeah.

ooh lovely! i have succeeded! sorry folks, but there is NO CHAOS BLOG anymore. oh so sad.

i officially claim this blog for my Very Own Use. since it seems like i won't ever be able to create another one. poop. ah wellus. so there.