be flying off in a couple of hours. on my way to Frankfurt! and from then on to switzerland and paris somewhat later. haven't really gotten into the travelling mood yet- i keep forgetting im supposed to be heading for the airport in less than 5 hours.

well don't have much that i want to blog about anyway. had land training with huilin leqi and weiqi this morning, which was pretty good. then again how bad can land training be? but i had awful stitches during the run- luckily there were traffic lights so i could bend over and touch my toes. haha. headed for j8 to do more CIP later, which wasn't entirely bad in itself, but rather expectedly boring. but talking to weiqi and gao shang managed to alleviate the boredom successfully.

also finished what i set out to do.

wow im damn tired think i'm becoming an insomniac- stayed up late last night to finish some important xmas stuff and i really couldn't sleep after that- guess there're just too many things on my mind. sad things.

well then- think i'll leave off now. have fun everyone, i'll be back on the 2nd! hahaa!


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to the girl who's perfect to me (you know who you are)
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you look into my eyes
i go out of my mind
i can't see anything
cause this love's got me blind
i can't help myself
i can't break the spell
i can't even try

i'm in over my head
you got under my skin
i've got no strength at all
in the state that i'm in
and my knees are weak
and my mouth can't speak
fell too far this time

baby, i'm too lost in you
caught in you
lost in everything about you
so deep, i can't sleep
i can't think
i just think about the things that you do (you do)
i'm too lost in you
(too lost in you)

ooh
well you whispered to me
and i shiver inside
you undo me and move me
in ways undefined
and you're all i see
and you're all i need
help me baby (help me baby)
help me baby (help me now)

cause i'm slipping away
like the sand to the tide
falling into your arms
falling into your eyes
if you get too near
i might disappear
i might lose my mind

i'm going in crazy in love for you baby
(i can't eat and i can't sleep)
i'm going down like a stone in the sea
yeah no one can mess with me
(no one can mess with me)

oooh, my baby
oooh, baby, baby

i'm too lost in you

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sugababes too lost in you

it's been a pretty good week! and i've blown alot of cash on stuff!
1. arsenal home jersey (with ljungberg name and no.! and epl sleeve patches!)
2. aiwa md player
3. sony digicam (okay i didnt really pay for this one, my parents did, but that's even better!)
4. bayern munich champs league jersey which i got today! yeah yeah yeah!

oh and i checked out the bugis village place opp. bugis junction where they have lots of damn cool clothes yesterday, meaning to go to this particular stall where they sell adidas retro jackets and other throwback stuff like nba jerseys and all! so i went there and was looking for a nice jacket when i stumbled across this bayern munich jacket! man i was darned happy. well yes.
so...
5. bayern munich jacket!

can you tell i love BAYERN MUNICH? yes yes they're second in the bundesliga now!

well shit im damned poor now la so. hahaha.

on my way to training on monday, i got off the bus at the kallang bus stop and guess who i saw crossing the road? junyi! hahaha! (for those who know about the stupid sec1 thingummy, good for you! damn paiseh la.) man it's been a long time really! especially since he went to perth for studies and came back for the hols. pretty good to catch up with him (he's doing ns at the police coast guard at kallang) especially since i've only had the opportunity to talk to him online! yeah so was quite pleasantly surprised!

it's been a week of meeting people! today on my way home from peninsula shopping centre i changed to NEL at dhoby ghaut interchange and met liwei! that was really great! especially since i don't get to see her that much due to our clashing schedules and all that shit! man i've missed her!

i've missed a lot of people. especially those i haven't seen in real eons- like the NJC 03a01 people (how are you guys man?) and the NYgeppers! man! training takes up a whole lot of time but i'd love to meet you guys!

PICTURE OF THE DAY


Defender Sammy Kuffour and skipper Oliver Kahn lovingly entwined after Bayern Munich's 1-0 Champions League victory against Anderlecht


Bayern 1 Anderlecht 0
Munich edge into last sixteen

10.12.2003 | Bayern claimed a place in the Champions League last sixteen on Wednesday night thanks to a first-half Roy Makaay penalty and some solid defending against Anderlecht in the second half, although Oliver Kahn had to rescue the win with a brilliant save deep into stoppage time.

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kudos to roy makaay and olli kahn! the best players in the world.
long live deutscher meister FC Bayern!

it's my brother's birthday today! happy birthday, dude!

heheh yeah. meant to blog about the NYgep gathering earlier, but didn't have time to use the computer. anyhows i thought it was a success- we went to marina south for steamboat! 17 of us came, and we had a pretty fantastic time. and i'm sure huiyuan feels most loved, everyone else in our table (qing, xy, nina and I) kept making sure she was never in want when it came to food. (most notably, chicken wings). well actually the truth is that no one wanted to eat them, so we dumped them on huiyuan's plate when her attention was directed somewhere else. unfortunately, she caught on after a while and we were forced to find alternative methods of disposing of the offending chicken wings.

went to boat quay to catch the last act of the buskers' festival. this 19-year-old guy from canada was performing- his show was called The Dan Show, and it was pretty good! well we managed to get his autograph and a photo with him at the end of his performance.

we had a really good time! so many laughs... especially between me and qing! during one of the quieter moments xy said this "i don't think much has changed over the course of one year." i think she's right. everyone's still the same, and things are just as good as before. which i'm thankful for, and i hope this never changes!

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training yesterday. met vania in the national stadium gym first for land training. did the usual routine (lat pulldown, bench press etc... and of course the obligatory ab work!) and later some free weights work. total workout yeah. was really good to train as i was feeling guilty after friday's marche and sunday's steamboat. even though my appetite has decreased significantly from previously. vania was at the gym since 7+ and she was bored to tears after 2 hours. so she sat at some corner to sleep and this fitness instructor came around, asking concernedly "are you okay?" well she was quite happy over that since he was quite good-looking, apparently, and in her words "isn't it good to wake up to the sight of a nice face?" erps. grin--

water training at 11 thereafter. did a K1 for the first 6 km (only my 2nd time doing K1!). rather wobbly during the first 3 rounds but much improved after that. and i was just feeling quite proud of myself at not having capsized before, so i took my hands of the paddle to roll up my sleeves (i hate wearing rj pe tshirt!) and over i went. i think i manage to capsize in most inane, incomprehensible ways. especially when with sheryl! haha! our 3 capsizes happened in the strangest ways possible! anyway i quite like K1. when coach made me try for the first time last monday, i doubted i'd be able to get off the shore. took me a good ten minutes then, but once i got the hang of it, it was quite good.

K2 later with leqi for the other 6 km. and she's really good! really good. had to push myself quite hard especially since land training earlier had drained me quite abit. but it was great rowing with her! pity coach says that it's unlikely we will row together. oh well.

added a link to my new guestbook- you'll find it over at the top of the right margin, just beneath "archives". feel free to drop a note!

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just returned from southern islands expedition yesterday. it was, truly, an unforgettable experience, in all ways possible. and i've also discovered that my rowing strokes are improving, as my torso and not my arms ache after the 50+km over the three days. contrary to popular belief, canoeing uses the back muscles primarily, and not the arms, for propulsion.

but i'm not sure if i ever want to get into another expedition kayak. i think i'll just stick to racing for now. gosh rowing in the open sea and waterways was quite an experience! we had to navigate the waves and backwash generated by the ocean liners and the other vessels, which was pretty good as you'll never be able to do that in a racing kayak. riding the waves was great, except when you plop down the other side and the sea spray splashes into your face, mixes with your sunblock and starts stinging your eyes real bad.

let's not talk about direction though. shit i hate having to do direction. spent half my time telemarking instead of rowing proper. gawd i was pissed. and weiqi was most amused. she related our experience of rowing together to the rest later, and yeah maybe it was quite amusing. but not so funny when it was happening. haha.

and kudos to our culinary experts, gao shang and leqi! without whom we wouldn't have tasted stuff like marinated chicken wings and pineapple rice. which is admittedly damn good food for an expedition. i've also discovered that, apart from them, everyone else has either a vague inkling of how to cook rice or absolutely no idea at all.

we've also discovered our residential santa claus, ms. poon! she's got all the stuff you could ever ask for on an expedition. like barley mints and tom yam noodles(!). and she's really funny too! oh and she asked me to try weightlifting after Alevels. erps. no i don't think i will. but kickboxing, no problem!

and one more thing to add- gao shang absolutely loves communual bathing! she had a blast of a time in the sisters' island toilet! but i shan't divulge details. go ask gao shang.

aaron mailed this round, being a man U fan. now i don't actually hate liverpool or anything, but this is still quite funny. :)

Court Ruling

A seven year old boy was at the centre of a courtroom
drama today when he challenged a court ruling over who should have
custody of the boy. The boy has a history of being beaten by his
parents and the judge awarded custody to his aunt. The boy confirmed
that his aunt beat him more than his parents and refused to live there.
When the judge suggested that he live with his
grandparents the boy cried out that they beat him more than anyone.
The judge dramatically allowed the boy to choose who
should have custody of him.

Custody was yesterday granted to Liverpool Football Club as the boy
firmly believes that they are not capable of beating anyone.

was it you who spoke the words that things would happen but not to me
oh things are gonna happen naturally
and taking your advice i'm looking on the bright side
and balancing the whole thing

but often times those words get tangled up in lines
and the bright light turns to night
oh until the dawn it brings
another day to sing about the magic that was you and me

cause you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of
others only read of
of the love that i love

see i'm all about them words
over numbers, unencumbered numbered words
hundreds of pages, pages, pages for words
more words than i had ever heard and i feel so alive

cause you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of
and if you could just see me now
now you and i, you and i
not so little you and i anymore
and with this silence brings a moral story
more importantly evolving is the glory of a boy

cause you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of
and if you could see me now
well then i'm almost finally out of
i'm finally out of
well i’m almost finally finally
well i’m free

and it's okay if you have go away
just remember the telephone works both ways
but if i never ever hear them ring
if nothing else i'll think the bells inside
have finally found you someone else and that's okay
cause i'll remember everything you sang

you and i both loved
what you and i spoke of
and others just read of and if you could see now
well i'm almost finally finally out of words



jasonmraz \\ you and i both

an jing by jay chou is a fab song. i got hooked after listening to it countless times at jamin's house during pw last sunday. it's all mx's fault, but i can't really blame her or anything. it's got beautiful lyrics, and for me to say that is really something because i'm not a chinese music person and my chinese is in the dumps.

was reading qing's blog, and i realised that i do understand exactly how she's feeling about all the shit that's going on. sometimes life does seem like the pits- when you try so hard yet you never manage to find what you've set out to achieve. shan't dwell on that bit though, it's most depressing.

sadness is beautiful
loneliness that's tragical
so heal me I can't win this war, oh no
touch me now don't bother
if every second it makes me weaker
you can save me from the man i've become

caught the first half of the england vs. wales rugby match. and i think jonny wilkinson's pretty darned good yeah. shall keep my eyes peeled for the rest of the matches coming up.

dinner with mr. R and the rest of 1a13a at marche's tmr. kind of looking forward to it- but sheesh i'm gonna be dead broke by the end of the week. hope tomorrow'll be good yep.

i really don't see the point of having chinese lessons in jc. well at least there could be something remotely resembling a syllabus that would make it so much easier to study for. and shou3 ce4s! i'm lost without them. the rj blue book doesn't exactly help anyway. i quit mugging from it after about a third of the book, and i'm not exactly sure that that third proved particularly useful.

on a lighter note, chinese wasn't that bad after all. hopefully i'll make an A and not get another B3 ha.

national stadium gym for own training yesterday. i think i'm becoming a gym rat, slowly but surely. and a health nut. well weicong came along slightly later, and got bored really quickly. somehow i don't think he'll be returning anytime soon. maybe we should go kayaking instead, but to me that's even more boring. oh well.

>>contempt is a hundredth of a second------

okay how scary is this. some ass stole three pictures from our canoeing board just yesterday- the ones we just put up like last wed before openhouse. we didn't stick them on or anything, just kind of slotted them on the board and found out that they were missing before training yesterday.

we figured out two of the missing ones- the one with me doing pullups at kallang sdba and the other one with leqi piggybacking weiqi.. but somehow or other we just couldn't figure out what was supposed to be the last photo. you know how it is when you're just unable to recall something but if it were there you'd know that it was the one you meant all along? ah shit im not making sense but still. so after traversing repeatedly to the damned board and listing all the possible events in which we could have taken photos (see we have a sadly limited range of photos, the bulk made up of candid camp shots or guys taupok-ing, etc.) it came to me suddenly!

yeah anyway it's the photo that carol (i think) took of gao shang and i when we were on the bus to pasir ris for 2star course. the one where she's like trying to funnel glucolin into her bottle and i'm just grinning like anything next to her. i think i look particularly awful in that shot. they could've stolen something else instead, or waited till we put up some nicer ones.

okay so now its really quite strange. what would anyone want with our photos? and why those particular ones, leaving the rest untouched? i am particularly freaked because i feature prominently in two of the three pictures. wah damn scary. maybe someone just really hates canoeists with a vengeance, or maybe someone hates leqi, weiqi and i to the core (what's not to like??? gawd.) well the other possibility is that maybe someone really really loves us. i prefer entertaining the thought of that.

anyway heard that some of the canoeists' lockers have been broken into. is that like coincidence or something? well the funniest thing about it is that vania's jealous that her photos on the board weren't stolen, and neither was her locker broken into. she says she feels unloved. and especially since there're like pictures of her aplenty on the board and apparently they're all still there. sheesh, vania.

oh well.

next year's birthday present i'd like a size S thank you very much.

so you think you're happy just moving around in the crowd

exams finally ended today! wonder how i'm going to do for them. it doesn't really matter as long as i get s papers. just came back from towning with gaya. got a haircut. damn short the stylist lopped off too much of the sides. shucks. and bought craig david's second "slicker than your average" yeah. still haven't looked at it yet. im a craig david enthusiast after having heard spanish.

i think you're searching for something new

decided to change my blogging font from verdana to arial after i kinda got tired of too much verdana. i really think orchard is getting darned boring, and so is the suntec-cityhall area. maybe i should start visiting all the neighbourhood shopping malls yeah.

cuz when the music's playing it gets to me and i know it gets you too

wanted to visit voshstudio (the cool movie memorabilia store) at suntec but didn't have time. oh well maybe next time. went to peninsula though checked with the storeowner but they didn't have anymore germany jerseys. sheesh. maybe i'll get the ljungberg one when i have some money perhaps.

just close your eyes and i'll set you free here's what you gotta do

projectwork's due tomorrow i hope everything's done. still can't really get reacquainted with the fact that i no longer have to mug my ass off. it's a pretty strange feeling. but cl ao exam is coming up so i'll have to start mugging soon. pretty much looking forward to this week- what with open house preparations and open house itself. oh yeah abit of advertising yep--

dreamweaver
RJC Open House 2003
23rd Oct
10am-5pm

there. done my bit. will be going down for filming at kallang on wednesday with the rest of the canoeists. hope it'll be good yeah. can't hardly wait to get into a k2.

now slide over here just give me a chance baby slide over here

can't wait to kick some ball either! football i meant.

well i'm bent on loving bent on loving it feels like i can't let it go
when you're inside outside outside in it feels like i'm losing control


donrichmond \\ b e n t

how the hell did we wind up like this
why weren't we able
to see the signs that we missed
and try to turn the tables

i wish you'd unclench your fists
and unpack your suitcase
lately there's been too much of this
don't think it's too late

nothing's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday i will

someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when

well i hoped that since we're here anyway
we could end up saying
things we've always needed to say
so we could end up stringing

now the story's played out like this
just like a paperback novel
let's rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a hollywood horror

nothing's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday i will

someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that

how the hell did we wind up like this
why weren't we able
to see the signs that we missed
and try to turn the tables

now the story's played out like this
just like a paperback novel
let's rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a hollywood horror

nothing's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday i will

someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
i know you're wondering when

nickelback \\ someday

she got out of town
on a railway new york bound
took all except my name
another alien on broadway

there's some things in this world
you just can't change
some things you can't see
until it gets too late

baby baby baby
when all your love is gone
who will save me
from all i'm up against out in this world
maybe maybe maybe
you'll find something
that's enough to please you
but if the bright lights don't receive you
you can turn yourself around
and come on home

i got a hole in me now
i got a scar i can talk about
she keeps a picture of me
in her apartment in the city
some things in this world
they don't make sense
some things you don't need
until they leave you
and they're things that you miss

let that city take you in
let that city spit you out
let that city take you down
for god's sake turn around

\\matchbox twenty bright lights

in com lab one typing aimlessly. so decided to blog haha. it's quan's birthday today! and nine of us got her the black daytripper 25l mambo bag which she had expressed liking for. its damn nice and she likes it alot so that's really good haha :]

project work now and our group doesn't have soft copy so we can't work on it. which explains my blogging yeah. yesterday's ponning stint at home was particularly fruitful. i managed to finish geomo one, couple of donne poems and some trigo. not bad. but i always regret that i don't start earlier which sucks when i actually realise it. anyway gotta mug and then can play from oct 21st onwards so thats not too bad.

but i doubt i can get my s paper(s)? oh shit. nevermind.

spent a bomb on ear cartilage piercing. i guess that's why it was so surprisingly painless. anyway yeah and i'm living testimony to the fact that you probably wont go blind and all the hit-a-nerve-and-go-blind stories are a whole load of bullshit anyway. yep.

man i can't wait for the exams to be over. i have this entire list of things to do and buy and so on. ohh yeah one of the first things is to stay over at someone's house where there's scv and catch the bayern munich champs league matches live. yeahhh after two matches they're top of group A man. that's the way.

GO BAYERN MUNICH.

and then i'll go get my roy makaay bayern munich jersey, and my fredrik ljungberg arsenal jersey with gaya who's gonna get the thierry henry one. shit i'll be broke. life without exams would be absolutely fabulous! and maybe life with lots of money too!

well then. suffering from withdrawal symptoms of no football. sigh sometimes i wish i had more time then i'd accept the offer to train with ite bishan. but it clashes with canoeing so that kinda sucks. oh wellus.

will blog sometime again!

till then-

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i'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless lost under the surface
don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
every step i take is another mistake to you
caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow

i've become so numb i can't feel you there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought i would be
has fallen apart right in front of you
caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
every step that i take is another mistake to you
caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
and every second i waste is more than i can take

i've become so numb i can't feel you there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like you

and i know
i may end up failing too
but i know
you were just like me with someone disappointed in you

i've become so numb i can't feel you there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like you

i've become so numb i can't feel you there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is everything what you want me to be

linkin park numb
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been awhile since i blogged! haha pe today was damn fun. tabletennis. played with quan and it was freaking funny hahaha. later doubles with mx and gaoshang which was even more hilarious. i think pe is simply glorious but unfortunately not many other people share my sentiments. :(

ran canal route with weiqi yesterday during one hour break. maaaann it was damn hot but we still managed to complete it in roughly half an hour which was pretty good. since im not ponning tmr i think i'll be doing weights with them again. the weights room is dominated by ruggers and canoeists. hope we don't see that chao rugger with the damn kao beh face. heard he's j3. screw him man.

mugged with canoeist guys yesterday. haha and they all drifted off after a while to play soccer. was supposed to play but had lots to mug for geog test. philip's new adidas futsal ball is damn chio yep. red+black fevernova. pretty cool.

oh yeah jus recalled what mr. reeves said on tuesday which i thought was quite funny.
"Business ethics is a contradiction. Just like military intelligence."
i'm an army loyalist so shan't comment on that. but still thought it was quite funny.

mugging mugging mugging. bad for health man its damn stressful. phy geog totally sucks la dammit. and my maths is in a shambles. its awful.

man fredrik ljungberg is damn hot larh. and i don't think he's too big in the wrong places anyway. hmmm what do you think gaya? and mx? hahahaa!

Subject: Msesed Up Ltteres.

Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at an Elingsh uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht frist and lsat ltteer is at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a toatl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit any porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae we do not raed ervey lteter by itslef but the wrod as a wlohe.

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a hundred days had made me older
since the last time that i saw your pretty face
a thousand lights had made me colder
and i don’t think i can look at this the same

but all the miles had separate
they disappear now when i’m dreaming of your face

i’m here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time

i’m here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight it’s only you and me

the miles just keep rolling
as the people either way to say hello
i hear this life is overrated
but i hope it gets better as we go

i’m here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time

i’m here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight girl it’s only you and me

everything I know and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
and when the last one falls when it’s all said and done
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love

i’m here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time

i’m here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight girl it’s only you and me


three doors down here without you
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for the nygep sec4s... the ones i hang out with...
here's perhaps the most overused pic of all time.

but i love it.



if you're game here's another one.

hey all... who wants to watch S.W.A.T. which opens this thurs 28th aug with me? man it's a police action flick it shouldn't be bad either considering it stars colin farrell! what's not to like... heheh ;) one hell of a sexy ass bloke yeahhh.

all the good guys appearing on the silver screen right about now. there's the italian job which features mark wahlberg coming to theatres in sept... man thats a movie im definitely gonna catch. oh and yeahhh xy you know what you owe me. ;) i couldn't have said it better myself.

screwed doing draft zero for pw. i think pw sucks big time man i don't see the rationale behind it. and we've got more stuff to do now that liong's gone! aargh thank god for jiahong man we need someone with that kind of brains yeah.

going to town with jo and gaya tomorrow. haha jo's gonna get a haircut! yeah man we need a change. ponytails are oooooouuuuuutttt! man. hahaha. wonder what kinda hairstyle she's gonna get. i recommend spikes. then again would i ever recommend anything else? heheh. jo says if it turns out disastrous she's gonna make gaya cut hers too. which evoked a particularly vehement response from gaya haha.

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oceans apart day after day
and i slowly go insane
i hear your voice on the line
but it doesn't stop the pain

if i see you next to never
how can we say forever

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

i took for granted all the times
that i thought would last somehow
i hear the laughter i taste the tears
but i can't get near you now

oh can't you see it baby
you've got me going crazy

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

i wonder how we can survive
this romance
but in the end if i'm with you
i'll take the chance

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

richard marx right here waiting

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i've got a new tagboard! so blow me... ;)

roy makaay! i used to hate him because he scored a hat-trick against olli kahn... while in deportivo la coruna in champs league last yr. haha but i was appreciative of his excellent striking abilities man. and now he's turning out for fc bayern... go no.10 makaay!

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oh yay finally i know how to put graphics on the page! o joy! xinying you rock!

aiyoh both my air hockey kakis not in school today. so it was quite dismal. hahaha... today was an okay day. at first i was kinda dreading the friday timetable because of the 1hr40min gp lesson and evans! but it turned out to be some colorectal surgeon giving some talk instead so it was fine. man there was PORN on his powerpoint slides! the entire lt was taken aback! the pics of surgery were fine though. guess it jus made me rethink whether my decision to stay in arts was the right one. i mean... it was always a childhood ambition of mine to be a doctor. all the way till this year when i was faced with the arts-science dilemma. sometimes i do have regrets. ya, sam, jus like you. i wonder if i've made the right choice. but i guess i should jus make the most of what i have now, which is pretty good.

the rest of the day was pretty uneventful. michael was so kind as to lend me his translations book. if not i'd have to suffer the irish brogue and wrath of mcconnell haha. i said much more than i normally would in mrs toh's lesson. as usual the class was being rather unparticipative and i kinda felt bad so i answered some of her questions heheh. i think she's quite nice really. pw observation during pw period! man the most polite and by far the most fruitful discussion we've ever had! not bad la.

played soccer with gaya after school! called it self-training. then later renji and amos and loads of other guys came along so we played with them too. hahaha hope the soccer ball's safe with renji heheh.

but there's still one thing irking me. its been at the back of my mind ever since it started. man if you ever read this i jus wanna let you know that it was all a stupid misunderstanding and that im sorry really. i mean, it's our faults, not one more than the other. ya. im not blaming you or anything really... please dont take this the wrong way. i want things to go back to the way they were before all this shit started. i really don't want to lose a friend. please please i hope this becomes fine it's really bothering me and i can't do a thing about it.

ya jus in case you read this.

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since the moment i spotted you
like walking round with little wings on my shoes
my stomach's filled with the butterflies and it's alright
bouncing round from cloud to cloud
i got the feeling like i'm never going to come down
if i said i didn't like it then you know i'd lied

every time i try to talk to you
i get tongue-tied
seems like everything i say to you
comes out wrong and never comes out right

so i'll say why don't you and i get together
and take on the world and be together forever
heads we will and tails we'll try again
so i say why don't you and i hold each other
and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven
'cause without you they're never going to let me in
and slowly i begin to realize this is never going to end
right about the same you walk by
and i say oh here we go again

when's this ever going to break
i think i've handled more than any man can take
i'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around and it's alright
bouncing round from cloud to cloud
i got the feeling like i'm never going to come down
if i said didn't like it then you know i'd lied

santana ft. alex band why don't you and i
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this goes out to her.

you know that you don't have to leave
saying why didn't i go home with you tonight

hmm abit of a guestbook problem. i've reverted back to enetation after realizing that you have to pay 99cents for the stupid signmyguestbook.com thing heheh. hey it's not about the money it's about the trouble haha. anyway enetation's currently down so keep your comments to yourself. there.

2star course yesterday, and i am totally convinced that:
1. in 1star, you learn how not to capsize, but;
2. in 2star all the way to 5star, you find new ways to capsize.

we used dancers (again!) that merrily twirled us offcourse each time we tried to do proper strokes. it was quite boring. but fun as well. first time i've been to pasir ris sea sports club... wow the sea's damn clean la. no danger of stepping on carcasses when you're launching your boats heheh. quite cool as only the girls' team had their course there. and yeah we jus had to visit the mega playground during lunch break! heheh.

went to marche's for dinner with sheil lise mz weilin micht her friend ru da huiyuan and of course sam! not all my usual clique but it was not bad la. as usual we waited for ages to go in (talk about being fashionably LATE heheh), met at 7 and went in at 8 ha. wooaahhh the food was damn good heh. but we spent alot of time queueing. at least it aids the digestion yeah. huiyuan and i had all these wonderful ideas about what to eat but in the end we didn't eat all that much after all. not bad.

ha so nice of me! ooh i've finally added links! maybe not so computer-illiterate after all. but i don't know how to upload pics. wtf.

oh yeah and sign my guestbook yup. thanks :] i even have a new one!

man had first soccer training in like, years yesterday. gaya joined! man im damn happy haha. we had lots of fun ya. and this goes out to abs- KC was there yep. we played with him too. man he's damn cute la agreed. and real nice too. so why don't you join soccer too? ;)

walked out of school with gaya to catch a cab to fort canning green. was jus telling her how i absolutely abhor it when some asshole suddenly turns up a little distance down the road and snatches the first cab that comes along. well anyway then some asshole turned up a little distance down the road and snatched the first cab that came along. ya so we were hopping mad but at least we managed to get a cab jus after.

arrived at fort canning found the rest on mats spread out along the side. watched the first ballet. gosh it was boring! i guess ballet isn't really my kind of thing, no matter what the rest of you say. ha. so aaron and i decided to accompany andrew to buy water. and instead of merely buying water, we ended up roaming ps and pilfering free water from the dispenser outside cafe cartel. aaron had this great idea that air hockey would be decidedly more entertaining than a ballet, so we headed to the arcade for a game or two. ended up playing eight games. oh gawd. the darned pucks flew everywhere. one slid most conveniently beneath the table and i had to wiggle spreadeagled under the table. since aaron and andrew couldn't fit. shit it was damn dusty la. laughed till our sides ached. most of the goals were darned own goals haha. andrew ended up with a sore wrist from the puck smacking into it most of the time. so he can't do his gp essay HA.

we returned to the ballet after a very fulfilling hour. shit la paid $5.20 for bag deposit. we were in time for the last performance though, which andrew paid rapt attention to. i didn't though. ballet really isn't my kind of thing. aaron and i were contemplating going off to starbucks but we didn't in the end. well at least it was a good class gathering and a nice way to say bye to liong. yeah.

i have two-star course this morning. hope all goes well. i need my tan! the canoeists are all losing their tans (with the exception of carol, haha). sheesh okay.

ah shit whatever am i doing up at this unholy hour blogging. heheh. a phygeog test tomorrow and i'm positive that i'm gonna flunk it. jus don't seem to be able to absorb any geomo stuff. wasn't like that for hydro... i jus don't get it. wtf.

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when we take our clothes off
don't you know the world stops
when we touch when we kiss
when we shut up for a moment turn out the light
we are reminded by the one thing forget how to fight
you and me or nothing cuz we got tonight
when we touch when we kiss
when we shut up
it just had to be you

nick lachey shut up
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dammit i'm currently addicted to this song. the chorus and pre-chorus are damn nice la. some other songs that i can't get out of my mind now:

craig david spanish
dreamz fm should i stay
don richmond bent ( i can't download this anywhere! dammit!)
jason mraz the remedy
santana & alex band why don't you and i

had a drive driven by your love
but when you messed around i lost the drive i found
thought you needed needed someone true
but you changed your mind or had i failed you

wished you've been careful with my heart
but you tore it apart and broke an angel's heart
i guess what's true has an end somehow
but i am living proof of what love is about

it's hard holding you loving you losing you
it's sad to be true and be fooled by you
i don't know i gotta go wanna know
should i stay or should i go

you played me on played me like a clown
but i feel for you even though i'm down
my heart is heavy heavy like a rock
but i am so amused you're still in my thoughts

what's done is done and i'll never feel the same
but we had some good times guess it's sad just the same
i guess the truth doesn't matter somehow
but you were living proof of what love is about

dreamz fm should i stay

screw project work man!
and balls i still don't have the guts! but i guess i was rather sad when i heard what she said yesterday. well i guess there's hope if it's "for now"... heh hopefully. shit i've fallen, and hard.

wah shit if i dont do pw now mengxin's gonna screw me upside down tomorrow. blog sometime later haha :)

nationals on for the past three days. as usual, nj swept both the guys and girls titles with 60++ points. nah no surprise. but it was pretty good, enjoying the sun sea and sand for those couple of days. had scf today. rowed t2 500m with carol. she had to replace mag for t1 500m at the last minute and i was damn worried that she'd be too tired to row well for t2 later. but gawd was it good. first for heats and straight to finals tomorrow. man i love the fcuk NJ boat. haha. as usual i was shouting like hell while rowing like when we did dragonboat earlier. i dunno i jus have to shout it kinda helps me row faster too. that's why i like 2-crew boats so i have someone to shout at because it gets pretty stupid shouting at yourself haha.

anyway i was damn pleased with t2 today we managed to shoot forward and grab a commanding lead in the beginning so we could afford to slack a little at the end. haha. towards the finishing line i was suggesting that maybe we could jus "glide through" and stop paddling. heheh. damn good hope finals are even better tomorrow. think im gonna take some creatine before the race.

not bad we did better than expected. both the girls' team's t1s and k1s are into finals, besides me and carol's t2. but the guys didn't do too well. heads up man at least you guys tried your best. we are gonna take the guys and girls titles for nationals next year man.

tomorrow's the open events as well. hope the j2s do well. especially lay may and huilin who came down to support us today! you go man! yeah!

gryphon canoeists go, row, get the flow.

hey in the media centre now ha. kinda stoned i really should be at chinese now but i got aaahhnnndrew to tell laoshi that i was off to canoeing. hope i don't bump into her later yeah. hopefully gonna donate blood later. i don't think it hurts, really. everyone keeps taking second looks at me because of my hair. well anyway i hope thats good. haha how nice of abs to say that i look "DAMN good!!!" im so flattered man thanks lots! ;) as long as KC looks good hah. yeah anyway.

i think i kinda blew my chance. shit she was in the library jus now but i didn't do anything about that! it was like a golden opportunity and as usual i passed it by. ha. shit where are my fucking guts i hate this it's like i wanna go up to her and say something but i'm jus too afraid. shoot. how??

anyway yeah wonderful sharon's gonna teach me how to change templates. im sucha friggin loser i don't even know how to use a template from somewhere else. in a rather self-depreciating mood today oh well. yay sharon taught me how to change template. she rocks man.

ah well.
it's been quite confusing. what should i do now? all this is fucking getting to me... awww this sucks. i don't know whether it'll work out man. i want it to!

desperate for changing
starving for truth
closer where i started
chasing after you

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

forgetting all i'm lacking
completely incomplete
i'll take your invitation
you take all of me

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

i'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
i don't know what i'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

hanging by a moment l i f e h o u s e

hey haven't blogged for a long time. jus finished common tests today- geog as the last paper. hope i manage to pass at least two subjects! shit if not i'll be suspended from canoeing. but i think passing two shouldn't be a problem. at least, i think.

went to town after last paper today with lingli guan and cheryl. spent most of our time slacking in far east after a heated debate over whether to watch finding nemo or charlie's angels. in the end we didn't watch either, but jus as well since i've already watched nemo twice and have no vested interest in the angels.

saw lots of people- an entire barrage of cjcians and later a multitude of other-jc-people. lots of njcians too heh. splurged 42bucks on a nike no bounds dri-fit shirt. shit damn spendthrift i tell you. oh well. ya thats all for now i guess.

aahh trace you owe me something now man ;)

hey wow i found the nj 35th sc website haha. it's accessible from the nj webpage and it's got summer nights dance instructions! now if only they'd put up instructions for this year's mass dance as well... yeah and ahem haha a certain 5th house rep hailing from solaris has managed to get himself prominently displayed on the front of the nj Integrated Programme design sheet... hmmm. ;)

third water training yesterday. did time in a t1 and was doing 2k warmups around 12+ when i saw the nj j2s in spanking new crafts. think nj's got new boats or something. the new crafts look damn cool- shiny and brightly painted and all. they even have yellow ks! i think they're ignoring me but i guess i understand why. oh well.

capped in the darned t1 while doing 30 hard strokes. was feeling quite accomplished for only having capped in a t1 once, back in nj, then mag cut into my lane. i momentarily lost control and went under. shit. gee the rain yesterday was real heavy. especially when we were rowing in the direction away from sdba- the hard droplets kept pelting my face and i couldn't half see. as usual, direction was screwed up. hah.

but at least i tried my hand at a k2 for the first time. when i first got into it it was so damned unstable and i kept thinking that lyd and i would probably cap in no time at all, but we managed to row about 2k and back without capping! abit wobbly but still. haha. at least my capping record for ks stands at zilch. hahaha.



you say one thing
and then i go turning around again
working things over better left unsaid
spinning around in my head
taking a moment too personally

i have told you
just half the words
i've wanted to get to you
fear of rejection keeps my heart at bay
feelings i'd rather not say
i'd rather have you close
than never at all

but every now and then
when my world is closing in
i feel you breezing through my mind
i can attempt to close my eyes
i can avoid the wrong or right
but something deep inside says
my heart wants what it wants

darren hayes the heart wants what it wants

went for first water training yesterday. i forgot whether we were supposed to meet at 10, or 10:15, or 10:30am at kallang mrt. didn't dare to be late because i remembered hearing rumors that for every 5 min we were late, we would have to do 50 pushups. so i reached kallang mrt at 9:55am and waited for a very long 35 minutes for the next canoeist to come. shit. no wonder i thought 10am was a little extreme.

went for first water training yesterday. i forgot whether we were supposed to meet at 10, or 10:15, or 10:30am at kallang mrt. didn't dare to be late because i remembered hearing rumors that for every 5 min we were late, we would have to do 50 pushups. so i reached kallang mrt at 9:55am and waited for a very long 35 minutes for the next canoeist to come. shit. no wonder i thought 10am was a little extreme.

it's kinda stifling at home. got nothing very much to do. i've finished revising two chapters of econs! hah! now there's only elasticity of demand left. it's rather strange, actually. just when o2's finished and i was hoping to get a chance to know my new class in rj better- there's this enforced holiday thing. which doesn't really help my cause but still- sheesh.

wonder what everyone else is doing? i think most people are grounded too shucks. was actually hoping for a 03A01 outing next week to breeks or something like that but have a feeling that most won't be able to turn up. what's the point of a holiday when you can't go out? hmmm really shouldn't be complaining but this is how i feel.

jus heard from iso that nj o2 was a blast. well at least the 2nd day of o2 was a blast. haha that's real cool! kudos to the o2 committee and all the o2 ogls heheh. apparently there were lotsa water games and stuff? man we didn't have those in o1. but still- glad to see that o2 in nj was a success! :] returned on monday since rj finished early- met up with shiyu zhiwei winnie liwei and revisited our old class! damn cool man. long live 03A01. did lots of nice cheers that i'd half forgotten about like the rip and roar cheer- and of course my two favorite cheers, the red and white cheer and the yaaaahhhh cheer!

hahaha and of course the fab mass dance- and i still can't get some of the moves for "the tide is high". hey man some of you njcians better teach me sometime haha. think nic, jiing shyuan and mervyn (the aqua house capt) were quite surprised to see me back. hopefully it was a pleasant surprise haha. mervyn even thought that i wasn't in nj any longer because i couldn't get in, and urged me to appeal till i managed to tell him that it wasn't because i couldn't get in. heheh.

went for a walk round nj with liwei while the njcians were having og session. one of the walks we normally have, like after basketball training or something. but this time it was different. no longer a student of the school. the memories will always be cherished. man the three months were one of the best times of my life.

haven't posted for quite awhile! well anyway i've got all the time in the world on my hands now- due to the week-and-a-half-long break caused by the sars outbreak. it's pretty serious, much more than i expected it to be. jus a simple prayer that the viral outbreak will be stemmed as soon as possible and the sick will be healed completely.

the glorious three months at njc have finally come to an end. i have pretty mixed feelings about it- part of me wishes i'd never put down rj as my first choice, especially after looking at all the photos i've amassed over these three months. however the other part of me feels that it's good that i've named raffles as my first choice, because i still owe miss teo two e.lit assignments -shhhhh. but you weren't supposed to know that.

six points! hardy har har! six A1s, two A2s and two B3s, inclusive of '01's chinese. guess it's okay, but maybe i got my hopes a little too high. well actually thinking back i shouldn't have expected much from chem and phy (my A2 subjects) since i'd only completed selected chapters from the textbooks when i sat for the Os. :] s-l-a-c-k-e-r. yes i know.

but overall i'm okay with my results. not ecstatically happy, since i've got this nagging feeling that i could have pushed myself a little bit harder and finished mugging those two sciences and perhaps get two more ones. but it's over and done with. oh wellus. one milestone behind me.

and now i'm faced with the dilemma of whether to stay in njc or leave for rj! it's not a question of patriotism/ passion/ love for the school -ahem- here, since i'd definitely pick nj any time over rj then. but the thing is, as zhiwei has mentioned several times, that there is definitely a difference between the standards of these two colleges, which is especially evident in e.lit. and i don't feel challenged enough in nj e.lit, to tell the truth. (though i'm very challenged in physical geography, which i know absolutely nothing about. sucks to combined humans) and ever since the rj open house i've wanted to go to rjc! gee- the atmosphere seems pretty lively and all. awww shucks i can't decide. leaving nj means forfeiting my chances of council, and i know i stand a pretty good chance at gaining the humans scholarship there as contrasted to rj. maaaaaan i'm in all of a dither.

and i've grown used to and adapted to people in njc- and even gotten to know a substantial number of councillors and house reps. talk about politics for campaigning. ;) oh and before i forget- nick foo's handshake has a marvelous effect on my bball shooting abilities. he joined us for a spot of bball after school on thurs- and jus before he left he came over to me, extended his palm to shake my hand, pat my arm and wish me "all the best for your results tomorrow". haha and my next coupla shots went in! heh.

oh yeah my friend just called and told me that in rjc the students are so smart that the teachers sit round and have tea breaks all day. is that true?

i got accosted after school by canoeists- which kinda ruined my day. earlier, i kind of thought that i had gotten everything worked out fine- that i'd announce my plan of quitting canoeing tomorrow morning together with peiling, so i'd be able to run for council with no worries. well anyway it didn't turn out like that. coming down the grandstand to meet jingying for touch- i wanted to try it out- i bumped into vivienne and some ex-canoeist girl called tanny or something. and they were coercing me into not quitting canoeing- saying stuff like we need you for T1 or K2 and we've already included you for SDBA competition and stuff like that. haha but one thing good about all that is that it makes you feel all-important and needed and very in control. ;) but that's not the point.


and to make things worse- they called two other seniors over and continued their tactics of making me stay in canoeing. so it went on and on for about half an hour, i think. and i've realised that canoeists in general quite detest student councillors- gosh minyan was quite brash about the SC which made me feel even worse- knowing that i'll probably be hated by the canoeists when i run for council. darn!

a very pissed me then retreated to the canteen after managing to shake off the canoeists with half-hearted promises that i'd tell them my decision by tomorrow. supposed to meet liwei to discuss the hssrp proposal but didn't have the mood for it, and entirely neglected the fact that i was supposed to go for touch practice too. but im really thankful for kelvin and this house rep, stella who came over then and they gave me some guidance on how to deal with my situation. i mean, hearing it from a councillor himself and a house rep- it makes you feel better cause you know that these are people who've gone through the process before.

quite looking forward to the reunion at ms. lee's house tomorrow- it's been quite a while since i've seen some of my ex-classmates! like you, sam! and huiyuan! the other hy i know! but that's another story. ;) well i hope it'll be fun. and that we'll all enjoy ourselves. and have a great time. yeah.

saw mr barber today for hssrp stuff. quite a number of us are pretty interested in it. but i'm not sure whether i'll be staying in arts or science- so i can't exactly make my decision. one of the projects that appears rather appealing is the one titled "political participation in singapore". and there's another one about the European Union, which sounds kinda good too. wellus. and i brought the book of hssrp reports we received a couple of years back during a symposium which we apparently went to. and barber was most delighted to see a paper titled "tourism and sustainable development"- realised it was on page twenty-seven, and eagerly rifled the pages to get there. geography teachers are all like that.

played a spot of basketball in the afternoon while waiting for huifang and liwei to end their general studies lesson at three. at least the teacher was so kind as to release them early- which is probably the case when you have only two students in your class and two hours face-to-face (especially with SUCH people ;) ) with them is more than enough to drive you nuts. oh yeah! and before i forget- liwei had a massive sneezing fit during math c lecture today, which caused miss chan to cock her head enquiringly at the commotion at the back of the LT, and ask very politely, amidst our stifled giggles, whether she would like to leave the LT. who wouldn't? so she did. heh.

those NJcians reading this- present and perhaps, even, future- VOTE ME FOR COUNCIL! heh! you've heard me at speakers' corner and you know i'm an extremely pro-NJ person! hahahaa! just taking this opportunity to plug my prospective campaign. oh yeah i'm campaigning with liwei- y'know, two for the price of one. that sorta thing. and theresa has been appointed our campaign manager! ha ha! yay.

hey! im in barber's geog lesson now, but you're not supposed to tell him that. well actually im multi-tasking- trying to source pictures of the costa del sol, AND typing this. sheesh i think i ate too much during lunch. darn. i shouldn't eat this kind of thing again. but we have a free period later, just after geog. and guess what we're gonna do? we're gonna play bball! heh heh. i hope i don't get certain ex-classmates jealous. ;)

i still haven't found a darned picture of the spanish beaches. awwww shucks.

mr barber's asked all of us where we plan to go after the Os results are released- and the unanimous response was that we'd all stay where we were. and he went "what'd happen if raffles... or whatever that place is(HAHA!) invited you over?" no prizes for guessing what we said! ;)

yeah! i wholeheartedly agree with thee, alexis! HWA CHONG mass dance CANNOT MAKE IT! heh heh. and like you, i feel bad about saying this, but it's true! sorry, all the hwa chongians out there-- :] i mean, like, yeah, nj mass dance this year is pretty tight- with the seven-minute combination of songs, which is damn funky. and to have nick foo teach it- man that's super. cuz he can really dance. and i really mean that. he's got tha groove!

chinese new year? pretty uneventful. first day devoted to visiting the hordes of father's godbrothers and godsisters and mother's sisters and brothers and second cousins and all that. you know, those relatives whom you see like, once a year during cny. yup. well at least there was a bountiful harvest in terms of hongbaos. so that's not too bad. :þ

back to school tomorrow, after a long weekend. it's kinda peculiar- i actually look forward to going back to college. i don't know why- i seem to be quite enjoying the college life. and of course there are the friends and the classmates and the cca mates and all the cool folks i see round each day. man i enjoy school. :] at least for now. been in constant contact with liwei during the three days of cny, through smsing. gosh i think i've used a Great Many messages in the short period of 72 hours. shit. i shall have to abstain.

hmmm i've got a comments system up and running, if you can see the faint blue words just above the date (not those below) of my entries- click on them and you'll get this response window. yup. so for those of you who've been pestering me to get a blogback thingy- here it is! heh heh.

yep CNY eve today- attendance for college celebs was rather dismal. coupla classmates went back to malaysia- some skipped to visit their sec schools- and the rest of us kinda drifted away after the papercutting/ firecracker competitions were over. well anyway it was wear NJuniform day 2 for most of our class, which was pretty good. and winnie, huifang, liwei and i decided to bring school ties and couple them with the uni for photo taking. well i didn't have a school tie, so i asked khalid to lend me his acs one. and guess what? yep he forgot. haha. oh well. at least zequan managed to wheedle an sji one from some guy, whose name i know not, and whose name she knows not too. clever! or charismatic, perhaps. ;) you go, babe! so as usual we took our 'dao' photos, failing miserably in almost all our attempts for that ever-elusive nonchalant air. p'raps i'll post the photos here when i get them developed. yep.

and our firecrackers ended up resembling a lantern of sorts, and we were seriously contemplating keeping the wire-and-cans structure just in case we had any lantern-making competitions in the near future. poo. and we didn't even finish using all the coffee cans! oh wellus. in any case, the caffeine overdosage we all sustained in the past week didn't help in keeping anyone awake during math lecture.

and guess who was in charge of th telematch? darn DARN AAAAARRRGGHHH i really should have volunteered to take part for aerius! heh. forgive that momentary outburst. sorry :]

crashed hwachong for their bazaar with the nygeppers. cool man. a bit apprehensive about going in at first since i was wearing nj uni- but it didn't seem to matter very much as hc seemed to be teeming with people from all the colleges, most pointedly dressed in their college unis. it was damn crowded, and real noisy, but the good thing about it was that i got to meet many of my ex-classmates, including qing who was dressed in a, erm, kinky RV uni -sorry RVppl! no offence! but that's what the guys say! ;)-, and sheila! hey sheil! i haven't seen you in, like, eons! my pootiful seatmate! and you owe me the cd -winks meaningfully- wellus.

then went down to orchard, where the whole lot of us met sze and xinying. and went to kfc, and then bowling. well at least we meant to bowl, but the queues were a little too long. um. so we walked to taka, where i saw practically half of NJC, including shiyu and winnie. :] and some j2 guy waved to me, but somehow i don't seem to recall him. strange.

and liwei appeared! like, POOF! with her friend. coooool. and so we walked around, and while making our way up to the library@orchard- guess who we met? yeeeeeahhhh we met philibert. ha! always bumping into him at taka. actually this's only the second time, but never mind. :þ and he was with phil and some other guy. no hsiang yang! supreme sadness. :( oh well. haha.

it's damn hot today- and i had canoeing prac in the morning. arrived at the bus stop outside my house just in time to miss the bus, and i got all worried that i'd be late and die a miserable death at the hands of the canoe j2s. but the next one came along after a bit, and i discovered that my senior was on it. and that was good. and neither was i late. :] then liwei came rushing up to me all flustered and complaining that she hadn't worn shoes and that she'd seen this j2 wearing running shoes and what would happen if we had to go running as she had slippers on. well it turned out that we didn't have to run after training. no cool-down! which was great, since in njcanoeing terminology, a cool-down is a euphemism for a Run On Sheares Bridge.

my first time handling a T1 today, which is a single-seater canoe, and i promptly capsized near the police coast guard area after wobbling around a bit. luckily my nice senior helped to right the boat quickly and i got the hang of balancing the canoe after going back to shore and readjusting the footrest further, which seemed to have been a major contributing factor to my imbalanced state. i mean, the canoe's. to my relief, i wasn't the only j1 who'd capsized. practically all the other j1s did too, and some, multiple times. :þ and i shan't embarass anyone here either.


Anthem for Doomed Youth
Wilfred Owen
What passing-bells for these who die as cattle?
Only the monstrous anger of the guns.
Only the stuttering rifles' rapid rattle
Can patter out their hasty orisons.
No mockeries for them; no prayers nor bells,
Nor any voice of mourning save the choirs,--
The shrill, demented choirs of wailing shells;
And bugles calling for them from sad shires.

What candles may be held to speed them all?
Not in the hands of boys, but in their eyes
Shall shine the holy glimmers of goodbyes.
The pallor of girls' brows shall be their pall;
Their flowers the tenderness of patient minds,
And each slow dusk a drawing-down of blinds.


i quite like war poetry- ever since i scored 21 out of 25 in a war poetry assignment waaaaaay back in sec2 -haha- and i'm pretty glad that we're revisiting it, well at least certain poems, in nj e.lit. cool.

yeah hiphop lessons are tomorrow! how cool is that. hopefully i learn something eh. haha.

feeling pretty tired after an exhaustive land training session for canoe practice. circuit training, really, which consisted of like fifteen or so stations specially designed to "work every major muscle group". hyper extensions for the back, oblique crunches(!) for the abs... you get the idea. Three reps, even. water training yesterday wasn't that tiring, or so i felt. in my opinion the most tiring part was the sprint from the bus-stop to the seasports centre. oops. hahaha. well we the j1s in njcanoeing are supposed to be concentrating on mileage right now so i guess that's pretty okay. but our canoe kept veering to the left in a most pronounced, deeply exaggerated way yesterday. think it's something to do with having a weaker left arm than the right.

school was pretty fun today- despite the fact that it was a thursday, the day we officially end at five. arrived in school at seven am and rushed my math homework. when practically the entire class was at the grandstand we made our way along the side of the college and up the slope to the parade square. to our utmost dismay, we realised that assembly was to be held in the hall instead. Which was quite a distance from the parade square. And so we ran to the hall and made it to the stairs just in time to hear the band merrily strike up the national anthem. even nick foo was late! ha.

we had e.lit with mr. dio first thing in the morning, and on my way to the LT i spotted the vice-cap of the Yellow -go figure- house scrutinizing his house board. which kinda made my day. :] anyway yeah we went through more literary devices during e.lit lecture- and i was pleasantly surprised to see the passage from Romeo and Juliet in which the sod Romeo is whining about Rosaline's apparent lack of interest in him. So there. you know the one that goes o brawling love blah blah? and still-waking sleep and cold fire and all that stuff. well mr. dio used it to illustrate the idea of oxymorons. and he had the LT in hysterics when he explained choice of words which were acceptable and those that were unacceptable, while loudly considering the possibility of whether to use fuck or copulate in a sentence, and the possible undertones. hmmm.

and then we had math. ms. chan was most displeased with dear old douglas and bemoaned the fact that she'd be seeing him for the remainder of the three months in nj. she even voiced her opinion that he'd be better off back in tchs. no kallang wave today, though. the class was pretty engrossed in the tutorial for partial fractions, if not we'd have to take a quiz on indices surds logarithms and what-have-yous. no doubt about it, we preferred the tutorial. :þ

break- liwei and ailin swapped uniforms. liwei has absolutely no RV look at all! but ailin could pass as an andersonian. haha. i never want to wear th RV uni after hearing what some j1 guys at canoeing one-star course said the other day- about it being, y'know, sorta kinky and all. nurses' uniforms indeed. most suited for guys' kinky fantasies.

econs. tutor's got a haircut. nothing new, excepting that. well during lecture mr. bryan ang screamed at us all again, for "strolling into lecture." any surprise? nope, not at all. a new female lecturer for econs, but i don't know what her name is. she's okay, though. and doug slept through lecture. again.

i almost fell asleep during GP. was pretty bored. i don't know why- but i thought GP'd be a subject i'd enjoy, and i don't seem to be getting that sort of feeling. ha. there didn't seem to be anything better i could add to the discussion, though. and we ended up discussing gangs of new york in relation to the school mission of loyalty with integrity, and i didn't even watch the darned movie, so i felt pretty stoned. pooh.

common lunch, and i came up with a wonderful perceptive theory on why a certain student councillor (hmm he's been mentioned earlier- go figure) spikes his hair up straight. so as to add an inch or so to his vertically-challenged frame! haha! it kinda works, actually.

human geog- mr. barber's a great teacher. serious- i really enjoy his lessons, even more so in comparison with lessons by his phy geog counterpart. and when he went through the name list today he mispronounced siqi's name as see-kee which was pretty hilarious. he's euro-centric, as self-described. haha. and he gave me 20 out of 20 for my very first human geog assignment! cool huh? never get that sorta thing in mrs yak's class. any guesses for what topic it was? yeah- it was TOURISM! the only topic i ever did in exams for geog elect papers in sec3/4. hah.

gosh the anti-science cheer from veejay is pretty cool! the one that goes we clap our hands and stamp our feet... it's damn nice! did it for classmates today and they were pretty taken by it. heh arts fac is da way to go! we had year-ones-meet-year-twos session today- our buddy class was 02A01, which wasn't much of a surprise. four guys in the class- slightly more pathetic than ours. well so the seniors sat us down in chairs in the centre of their civics class and began distributing cheezels and oreos and all sorts of junk. and in despair we started chanting the mantra height-and-weight among ourselves. as you see, nj's got this obsession about physical well-being, which explains the strenous PE lessons and the fact that they measure BMI besides height and weight. so we're gonna be measuring those two quantities sometime next week, and no one kinda dares to indulge. for this week, at least.

signed up for hip-hop classes in nj- cool that they're actually offering it. and dragged liwei along at the same time. she vehemently protested, but helpful huifang aided me in writing her name down on the registration list. hahahaa.

ohhhh just returned from church encounter weekend- spiritually rejuvenated but physically worn out. and i haven't completed my human geog homework, or my algebra assignment, for that matter. shucks.

after quite a bit of thinking, i've finally decided that i'll officially join canoeing. i was actually debating whether to do so or not, considering the punishing training regimen that all njcanoeists are subjected to. training thrice a week, four times for seniors. what luck. two water training sessions at kallang basin and land training in college. and i've heard from kia min that they ran the length of sheares bridge after wednesday's water training session. ooohh.

well anyway i badgered and pleaded with liwei the whole of thursday to join canoeing with me, until she finally relented after i hinted at the limitless benefits of canoeing. eg. great tan, hot bod, hunky seniors ;) you get the idea. i think she was kinda won over by the latter. well liwei, let's hope wenkai grows taller eh? ;)

we were also talking about the "best friend" theory that seemed to be rather uncannily accurate. you know how it is when you like someone and that someone promptly falls for your best friend. and you start getting all green-eyed and envious. so liwei and i have decided to be, errr, best friends, so that the theory will work out for the good of both parties. heh heh. you know, hu4 xiang1 bang1 mang2? :]

thursday! it's actually supposed to be the longest school day of the week- with lessons officially ending at five and no free periods in between for us. but anyway today was a Good Thursday- e.lit paper one teacher was on maternity leave, and our human geog teacher Mr. Barber(!) had a course on. something like that, anyway. yeah so we had the whole time after lunch free, till pe period at four, which is the sort of school day i quite enjoy.

well anyway my math tutor is this motherly figure- she sorta reminds me of a matron or something like, and you wouldn't believe how boring her tutorials are. so being the ultra-enthusiastic arts class we are, the entire left side of the class plotted that we would perform a long, langourous wave in unison, while the unsuspecting tutor meticulously penned logarithmic answers on the board. so she did, and so we did. then we decided perhaps a Kallang Wave would be an ideal way to end math tutorial, and douglas and zequan on the leftmost of the class promptly stood up with a grand flourish, the rest of us following suit, while the conscientious right side of the class continued working on their math problems. the math tutor turned around suddenly (she must have been suspicious) and was just in time to see jess plonk back onto her chair after her full participation in the Kallang Wave. most hilarious.

has everyone heard of the new cca that my friends and i are planning to start? it's aptly named the People-Watchers' Club, and all NJCians are most welcome to attend our meetings. Sessions are held daily at 7.10am, location being the topmost row besides the Second Pillar of the Grandstand. no prizes for guessing what's done at our daily meetings. ;) the idea stemmed from these four NJ j2 guys we christened the Fab Four (no, no association whatever to F4- i simply detest F4)-- because they all look pretty good and have varying degrees of cuteness. but i really shouldn't incriminate anyone just yet. and you might all just start jioing them. thing is, one of them was "recently attached", two are single and available, and status unknown for the last. oh wellus.

there's this j2 guy- Solaris house vice-captain, actually, that my friends and i have been bumping into numerous times daily. and every time we meet, we wave. well if i remember correctly, i waved to him a grand total of five times yesterday. it's quite entertaining, as no one seems to pop up as much as him. he was formerly from tchs-- but he doesn't fit the stereotype of a chinese high boy. rather english-looking. hahaha. and finally managed to do more than wave to him today- played basketball with him, which was quite enjoyable. he looks cool in the sense that he wears his pants baggy and has fab skater shoes. nice. :)

i've got econs homework waiting for me- catch y'all later. till then--

Toploader-Dancing in the Moonlight

we get it on most every night
when that moon is big and bright
its a supernatural delight
everybody's dancing in the moonlight

we get it on most every night
everybody here is out of sight
they dont bark and they dont bite
they keep things loose they keep it tight
everybody's dancing in the moonlight

dancing in the moonlight
everybody's feeling warm and bright
its such a fine and natural sight
everybody's dancing in the moonlight

we like our fun and we never fight
you cant dance and stay uptight
its a supernatural delight
everybody was dancing in the moonlight

dancing in the moonlight
everybody's feeling warm and bright
its such a fine and natural sight
everybody's dancing in the moonlight

we get in on most every night
and when that moon is big and bright
its a supernatural delight
everybody's dancing in the moonlight

dancing in the moonlight
everybody's feeling warm and bright
its such a fine and natural sight
everybody's dancing in the moonlight

we got the red
we got the white
we got the stripes
we got the lion on our side

wo men you hong
wo men you bai
wo men you xian
wo men you shi zi zai zhe bian

semmai undu
venmai undu
kodu undu
singam nam pakkathil

ada merah
ada putih
ada belang
ada singa di sini


just one of the cheers i like quite a bit- it's catchy, and yeah, it comes in four languages! heh that's what you get, being in njc. uhh well. but for the tamil bit, everyone gets the last line muddled -including yours truly- but somehow pakkathil is firmly etched in my mind.

more about my OG! 03A01! we've got the lamest people that ever walked the earth! And a Very Cute Lame Funny Nice OGL too, according to my friend winnie! yeahhh we rock!

well i never knew what the 03 in front of my class A01 was for- until a classmate pointed out that we were the batch of '03, which was a very astute observation on her part. or were the rest of us simply blur. perhaps. arts fac people are whoopee! yeah there are only three arts classes in contrast to the twentyfive science classes- and the enrolment in the arts classes is like, twenty-odd, which kinda resembles a gep class. cool huh.

i quite like the nj massdance- the first few days i was there i didn't really enjoy it- perhaps 'cuz i was getting all tangled up attempting the various moves, of which included the Legolas move, which jitsy would be most pleased to hear about, and the Deborah move, which was aptly christened by the dance choreographers as such due to my so-named OGL practising (and perfecting) the move every night.

more about nj orientation -click here to start- '03 later...

yeeahhh i haven't posted here in a real long time! anyway i've just finished my 5th day of orientation, which is starting to seem sorta like one of those unbelievably long church camps. well NJ's pretty cool- not one bit like what i'd heard in NY about it being incredibly boring and all. and all the stuff about we-rock.com and all that shit. whoops. haha well i'm in arts, at least for the first three months (somehow i don't think i'll be able to bear leaving my OG after Os results) and we had our first coupla lectures today! and yeah well i don't really want to say anything much about the tutors since i don't know them that well yet.

well my OG is superb! class consists of a grand total of 5 guys and 16 girls~ heh heh. and somehow i don't have to miss jits' and huiyuan's corniness so much since my class is saturated with it. orientation was pretty cool- i can now brag that i've had the chance to experience school songs in three languages! english in rosyth- chinese in NY and now malay in NJ. yep. can't seem to remember it though. i know the first line goes inilah maktab banggaan kita and the next ends with bangsa but my memory fails me for the rest of the three stanzas. and so i mouth inanely some gibberish or other while the college anthem plays.

and i've got great OGLs too! ha two girls and a guy- who are all incredibly fantabulous and somehow i can't seem to accept the fact that they're only a year older than we are- they seem lots more mature. heh perhaps we're just a little too juvenile. oh wellus. and yeah i must tell you that the guy OGL has long and curly leg hair -hahaha i couldn't resist-- been playing too many collect-a-strand-of-leg-hair-4cm-in-length games- but he's a real nice guy anyway.