for the nygep sec4s... the ones i hang out with...
here's perhaps the most overused pic of all time.

but i love it.



if you're game here's another one.

hey all... who wants to watch S.W.A.T. which opens this thurs 28th aug with me? man it's a police action flick it shouldn't be bad either considering it stars colin farrell! what's not to like... heheh ;) one hell of a sexy ass bloke yeahhh.

all the good guys appearing on the silver screen right about now. there's the italian job which features mark wahlberg coming to theatres in sept... man thats a movie im definitely gonna catch. oh and yeahhh xy you know what you owe me. ;) i couldn't have said it better myself.

screwed doing draft zero for pw. i think pw sucks big time man i don't see the rationale behind it. and we've got more stuff to do now that liong's gone! aargh thank god for jiahong man we need someone with that kind of brains yeah.

going to town with jo and gaya tomorrow. haha jo's gonna get a haircut! yeah man we need a change. ponytails are oooooouuuuuutttt! man. hahaha. wonder what kinda hairstyle she's gonna get. i recommend spikes. then again would i ever recommend anything else? heheh. jo says if it turns out disastrous she's gonna make gaya cut hers too. which evoked a particularly vehement response from gaya haha.

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oceans apart day after day
and i slowly go insane
i hear your voice on the line
but it doesn't stop the pain

if i see you next to never
how can we say forever

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

i took for granted all the times
that i thought would last somehow
i hear the laughter i taste the tears
but i can't get near you now

oh can't you see it baby
you've got me going crazy

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

i wonder how we can survive
this romance
but in the end if i'm with you
i'll take the chance

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

richard marx right here waiting

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i've got a new tagboard! so blow me... ;)

roy makaay! i used to hate him because he scored a hat-trick against olli kahn... while in deportivo la coruna in champs league last yr. haha but i was appreciative of his excellent striking abilities man. and now he's turning out for fc bayern... go no.10 makaay!

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oh yay finally i know how to put graphics on the page! o joy! xinying you rock!

aiyoh both my air hockey kakis not in school today. so it was quite dismal. hahaha... today was an okay day. at first i was kinda dreading the friday timetable because of the 1hr40min gp lesson and evans! but it turned out to be some colorectal surgeon giving some talk instead so it was fine. man there was PORN on his powerpoint slides! the entire lt was taken aback! the pics of surgery were fine though. guess it jus made me rethink whether my decision to stay in arts was the right one. i mean... it was always a childhood ambition of mine to be a doctor. all the way till this year when i was faced with the arts-science dilemma. sometimes i do have regrets. ya, sam, jus like you. i wonder if i've made the right choice. but i guess i should jus make the most of what i have now, which is pretty good.

the rest of the day was pretty uneventful. michael was so kind as to lend me his translations book. if not i'd have to suffer the irish brogue and wrath of mcconnell haha. i said much more than i normally would in mrs toh's lesson. as usual the class was being rather unparticipative and i kinda felt bad so i answered some of her questions heheh. i think she's quite nice really. pw observation during pw period! man the most polite and by far the most fruitful discussion we've ever had! not bad la.

played soccer with gaya after school! called it self-training. then later renji and amos and loads of other guys came along so we played with them too. hahaha hope the soccer ball's safe with renji heheh.

but there's still one thing irking me. its been at the back of my mind ever since it started. man if you ever read this i jus wanna let you know that it was all a stupid misunderstanding and that im sorry really. i mean, it's our faults, not one more than the other. ya. im not blaming you or anything really... please dont take this the wrong way. i want things to go back to the way they were before all this shit started. i really don't want to lose a friend. please please i hope this becomes fine it's really bothering me and i can't do a thing about it.

ya jus in case you read this.

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since the moment i spotted you
like walking round with little wings on my shoes
my stomach's filled with the butterflies and it's alright
bouncing round from cloud to cloud
i got the feeling like i'm never going to come down
if i said i didn't like it then you know i'd lied

every time i try to talk to you
i get tongue-tied
seems like everything i say to you
comes out wrong and never comes out right

so i'll say why don't you and i get together
and take on the world and be together forever
heads we will and tails we'll try again
so i say why don't you and i hold each other
and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven
'cause without you they're never going to let me in
and slowly i begin to realize this is never going to end
right about the same you walk by
and i say oh here we go again

when's this ever going to break
i think i've handled more than any man can take
i'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around and it's alright
bouncing round from cloud to cloud
i got the feeling like i'm never going to come down
if i said didn't like it then you know i'd lied

santana ft. alex band why don't you and i
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this goes out to her.

you know that you don't have to leave
saying why didn't i go home with you tonight

hmm abit of a guestbook problem. i've reverted back to enetation after realizing that you have to pay 99cents for the stupid signmyguestbook.com thing heheh. hey it's not about the money it's about the trouble haha. anyway enetation's currently down so keep your comments to yourself. there.

2star course yesterday, and i am totally convinced that:
1. in 1star, you learn how not to capsize, but;
2. in 2star all the way to 5star, you find new ways to capsize.

we used dancers (again!) that merrily twirled us offcourse each time we tried to do proper strokes. it was quite boring. but fun as well. first time i've been to pasir ris sea sports club... wow the sea's damn clean la. no danger of stepping on carcasses when you're launching your boats heheh. quite cool as only the girls' team had their course there. and yeah we jus had to visit the mega playground during lunch break! heheh.

went to marche's for dinner with sheil lise mz weilin micht her friend ru da huiyuan and of course sam! not all my usual clique but it was not bad la. as usual we waited for ages to go in (talk about being fashionably LATE heheh), met at 7 and went in at 8 ha. wooaahhh the food was damn good heh. but we spent alot of time queueing. at least it aids the digestion yeah. huiyuan and i had all these wonderful ideas about what to eat but in the end we didn't eat all that much after all. not bad.

ha so nice of me! ooh i've finally added links! maybe not so computer-illiterate after all. but i don't know how to upload pics. wtf.

oh yeah and sign my guestbook yup. thanks :] i even have a new one!

man had first soccer training in like, years yesterday. gaya joined! man im damn happy haha. we had lots of fun ya. and this goes out to abs- KC was there yep. we played with him too. man he's damn cute la agreed. and real nice too. so why don't you join soccer too? ;)

walked out of school with gaya to catch a cab to fort canning green. was jus telling her how i absolutely abhor it when some asshole suddenly turns up a little distance down the road and snatches the first cab that comes along. well anyway then some asshole turned up a little distance down the road and snatched the first cab that came along. ya so we were hopping mad but at least we managed to get a cab jus after.

arrived at fort canning found the rest on mats spread out along the side. watched the first ballet. gosh it was boring! i guess ballet isn't really my kind of thing, no matter what the rest of you say. ha. so aaron and i decided to accompany andrew to buy water. and instead of merely buying water, we ended up roaming ps and pilfering free water from the dispenser outside cafe cartel. aaron had this great idea that air hockey would be decidedly more entertaining than a ballet, so we headed to the arcade for a game or two. ended up playing eight games. oh gawd. the darned pucks flew everywhere. one slid most conveniently beneath the table and i had to wiggle spreadeagled under the table. since aaron and andrew couldn't fit. shit it was damn dusty la. laughed till our sides ached. most of the goals were darned own goals haha. andrew ended up with a sore wrist from the puck smacking into it most of the time. so he can't do his gp essay HA.

we returned to the ballet after a very fulfilling hour. shit la paid $5.20 for bag deposit. we were in time for the last performance though, which andrew paid rapt attention to. i didn't though. ballet really isn't my kind of thing. aaron and i were contemplating going off to starbucks but we didn't in the end. well at least it was a good class gathering and a nice way to say bye to liong. yeah.

i have two-star course this morning. hope all goes well. i need my tan! the canoeists are all losing their tans (with the exception of carol, haha). sheesh okay.

ah shit whatever am i doing up at this unholy hour blogging. heheh. a phygeog test tomorrow and i'm positive that i'm gonna flunk it. jus don't seem to be able to absorb any geomo stuff. wasn't like that for hydro... i jus don't get it. wtf.

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when we take our clothes off
don't you know the world stops
when we touch when we kiss
when we shut up for a moment turn out the light
we are reminded by the one thing forget how to fight
you and me or nothing cuz we got tonight
when we touch when we kiss
when we shut up
it just had to be you

nick lachey shut up
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dammit i'm currently addicted to this song. the chorus and pre-chorus are damn nice la. some other songs that i can't get out of my mind now:

craig david spanish
dreamz fm should i stay
don richmond bent ( i can't download this anywhere! dammit!)
jason mraz the remedy
santana & alex band why don't you and i

had a drive driven by your love
but when you messed around i lost the drive i found
thought you needed needed someone true
but you changed your mind or had i failed you

wished you've been careful with my heart
but you tore it apart and broke an angel's heart
i guess what's true has an end somehow
but i am living proof of what love is about

it's hard holding you loving you losing you
it's sad to be true and be fooled by you
i don't know i gotta go wanna know
should i stay or should i go

you played me on played me like a clown
but i feel for you even though i'm down
my heart is heavy heavy like a rock
but i am so amused you're still in my thoughts

what's done is done and i'll never feel the same
but we had some good times guess it's sad just the same
i guess the truth doesn't matter somehow
but you were living proof of what love is about

dreamz fm should i stay

screw project work man!
and balls i still don't have the guts! but i guess i was rather sad when i heard what she said yesterday. well i guess there's hope if it's "for now"... heh hopefully. shit i've fallen, and hard.

wah shit if i dont do pw now mengxin's gonna screw me upside down tomorrow. blog sometime later haha :)

nationals on for the past three days. as usual, nj swept both the guys and girls titles with 60++ points. nah no surprise. but it was pretty good, enjoying the sun sea and sand for those couple of days. had scf today. rowed t2 500m with carol. she had to replace mag for t1 500m at the last minute and i was damn worried that she'd be too tired to row well for t2 later. but gawd was it good. first for heats and straight to finals tomorrow. man i love the fcuk NJ boat. haha. as usual i was shouting like hell while rowing like when we did dragonboat earlier. i dunno i jus have to shout it kinda helps me row faster too. that's why i like 2-crew boats so i have someone to shout at because it gets pretty stupid shouting at yourself haha.

anyway i was damn pleased with t2 today we managed to shoot forward and grab a commanding lead in the beginning so we could afford to slack a little at the end. haha. towards the finishing line i was suggesting that maybe we could jus "glide through" and stop paddling. heheh. damn good hope finals are even better tomorrow. think im gonna take some creatine before the race.

not bad we did better than expected. both the girls' team's t1s and k1s are into finals, besides me and carol's t2. but the guys didn't do too well. heads up man at least you guys tried your best. we are gonna take the guys and girls titles for nationals next year man.

tomorrow's the open events as well. hope the j2s do well. especially lay may and huilin who came down to support us today! you go man! yeah!

gryphon canoeists go, row, get the flow.

hey in the media centre now ha. kinda stoned i really should be at chinese now but i got aaahhnnndrew to tell laoshi that i was off to canoeing. hope i don't bump into her later yeah. hopefully gonna donate blood later. i don't think it hurts, really. everyone keeps taking second looks at me because of my hair. well anyway i hope thats good. haha how nice of abs to say that i look "DAMN good!!!" im so flattered man thanks lots! ;) as long as KC looks good hah. yeah anyway.

i think i kinda blew my chance. shit she was in the library jus now but i didn't do anything about that! it was like a golden opportunity and as usual i passed it by. ha. shit where are my fucking guts i hate this it's like i wanna go up to her and say something but i'm jus too afraid. shoot. how??

anyway yeah wonderful sharon's gonna teach me how to change templates. im sucha friggin loser i don't even know how to use a template from somewhere else. in a rather self-depreciating mood today oh well. yay sharon taught me how to change template. she rocks man.

ah well.
it's been quite confusing. what should i do now? all this is fucking getting to me... awww this sucks. i don't know whether it'll work out man. i want it to!

desperate for changing
starving for truth
closer where i started
chasing after you

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

forgetting all i'm lacking
completely incomplete
i'll take your invitation
you take all of me

i'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all i've held onto
i'm standing here until you make me move
i'm hanging by a moment here with you

i'm living for the only thing i know
i'm running and not quite sure where to go
i don't know what i'm diving into
just hanging by a moment here with you

hanging by a moment l i f e h o u s e

hey haven't blogged for a long time. jus finished common tests today- geog as the last paper. hope i manage to pass at least two subjects! shit if not i'll be suspended from canoeing. but i think passing two shouldn't be a problem. at least, i think.

went to town after last paper today with lingli guan and cheryl. spent most of our time slacking in far east after a heated debate over whether to watch finding nemo or charlie's angels. in the end we didn't watch either, but jus as well since i've already watched nemo twice and have no vested interest in the angels.

saw lots of people- an entire barrage of cjcians and later a multitude of other-jc-people. lots of njcians too heh. splurged 42bucks on a nike no bounds dri-fit shirt. shit damn spendthrift i tell you. oh well. ya thats all for now i guess.

aahh trace you owe me something now man ;)

hey wow i found the nj 35th sc website haha. it's accessible from the nj webpage and it's got summer nights dance instructions! now if only they'd put up instructions for this year's mass dance as well... yeah and ahem haha a certain 5th house rep hailing from solaris has managed to get himself prominently displayed on the front of the nj Integrated Programme design sheet... hmmm. ;)

third water training yesterday. did time in a t1 and was doing 2k warmups around 12+ when i saw the nj j2s in spanking new crafts. think nj's got new boats or something. the new crafts look damn cool- shiny and brightly painted and all. they even have yellow ks! i think they're ignoring me but i guess i understand why. oh well.

capped in the darned t1 while doing 30 hard strokes. was feeling quite accomplished for only having capped in a t1 once, back in nj, then mag cut into my lane. i momentarily lost control and went under. shit. gee the rain yesterday was real heavy. especially when we were rowing in the direction away from sdba- the hard droplets kept pelting my face and i couldn't half see. as usual, direction was screwed up. hah.

but at least i tried my hand at a k2 for the first time. when i first got into it it was so damned unstable and i kept thinking that lyd and i would probably cap in no time at all, but we managed to row about 2k and back without capping! abit wobbly but still. haha. at least my capping record for ks stands at zilch. hahaha.



you say one thing
and then i go turning around again
working things over better left unsaid
spinning around in my head
taking a moment too personally

i have told you
just half the words
i've wanted to get to you
fear of rejection keeps my heart at bay
feelings i'd rather not say
i'd rather have you close
than never at all

but every now and then
when my world is closing in
i feel you breezing through my mind
i can attempt to close my eyes
i can avoid the wrong or right
but something deep inside says
my heart wants what it wants

darren hayes the heart wants what it wants

went for first water training yesterday. i forgot whether we were supposed to meet at 10, or 10:15, or 10:30am at kallang mrt. didn't dare to be late because i remembered hearing rumors that for every 5 min we were late, we would have to do 50 pushups. so i reached kallang mrt at 9:55am and waited for a very long 35 minutes for the next canoeist to come. shit. no wonder i thought 10am was a little extreme.

went for first water training yesterday. i forgot whether we were supposed to meet at 10, or 10:15, or 10:30am at kallang mrt. didn't dare to be late because i remembered hearing rumors that for every 5 min we were late, we would have to do 50 pushups. so i reached kallang mrt at 9:55am and waited for a very long 35 minutes for the next canoeist to come. shit. no wonder i thought 10am was a little extreme.