an jing by jay chou is a fab song. i got hooked after listening to it countless times at jamin's house during pw last sunday. it's all mx's fault, but i can't really blame her or anything. it's got beautiful lyrics, and for me to say that is really something because i'm not a chinese music person and my chinese is in the dumps.

was reading qing's blog, and i realised that i do understand exactly how she's feeling about all the shit that's going on. sometimes life does seem like the pits- when you try so hard yet you never manage to find what you've set out to achieve. shan't dwell on that bit though, it's most depressing.

sadness is beautiful
loneliness that's tragical
so heal me I can't win this war, oh no
touch me now don't bother
if every second it makes me weaker
you can save me from the man i've become

caught the first half of the england vs. wales rugby match. and i think jonny wilkinson's pretty darned good yeah. shall keep my eyes peeled for the rest of the matches coming up.

dinner with mr. R and the rest of 1a13a at marche's tmr. kind of looking forward to it- but sheesh i'm gonna be dead broke by the end of the week. hope tomorrow'll be good yep.

i really don't see the point of having chinese lessons in jc. well at least there could be something remotely resembling a syllabus that would make it so much easier to study for. and shou3 ce4s! i'm lost without them. the rj blue book doesn't exactly help anyway. i quit mugging from it after about a third of the book, and i'm not exactly sure that that third proved particularly useful.

on a lighter note, chinese wasn't that bad after all. hopefully i'll make an A and not get another B3 ha.

national stadium gym for own training yesterday. i think i'm becoming a gym rat, slowly but surely. and a health nut. well weicong came along slightly later, and got bored really quickly. somehow i don't think he'll be returning anytime soon. maybe we should go kayaking instead, but to me that's even more boring. oh well.

>>contempt is a hundredth of a second------

okay how scary is this. some ass stole three pictures from our canoeing board just yesterday- the ones we just put up like last wed before openhouse. we didn't stick them on or anything, just kind of slotted them on the board and found out that they were missing before training yesterday.

we figured out two of the missing ones- the one with me doing pullups at kallang sdba and the other one with leqi piggybacking weiqi.. but somehow or other we just couldn't figure out what was supposed to be the last photo. you know how it is when you're just unable to recall something but if it were there you'd know that it was the one you meant all along? ah shit im not making sense but still. so after traversing repeatedly to the damned board and listing all the possible events in which we could have taken photos (see we have a sadly limited range of photos, the bulk made up of candid camp shots or guys taupok-ing, etc.) it came to me suddenly!

yeah anyway it's the photo that carol (i think) took of gao shang and i when we were on the bus to pasir ris for 2star course. the one where she's like trying to funnel glucolin into her bottle and i'm just grinning like anything next to her. i think i look particularly awful in that shot. they could've stolen something else instead, or waited till we put up some nicer ones.

okay so now its really quite strange. what would anyone want with our photos? and why those particular ones, leaving the rest untouched? i am particularly freaked because i feature prominently in two of the three pictures. wah damn scary. maybe someone just really hates canoeists with a vengeance, or maybe someone hates leqi, weiqi and i to the core (what's not to like??? gawd.) well the other possibility is that maybe someone really really loves us. i prefer entertaining the thought of that.

anyway heard that some of the canoeists' lockers have been broken into. is that like coincidence or something? well the funniest thing about it is that vania's jealous that her photos on the board weren't stolen, and neither was her locker broken into. she says she feels unloved. and especially since there're like pictures of her aplenty on the board and apparently they're all still there. sheesh, vania.

oh well.

next year's birthday present i'd like a size S thank you very much.

so you think you're happy just moving around in the crowd

exams finally ended today! wonder how i'm going to do for them. it doesn't really matter as long as i get s papers. just came back from towning with gaya. got a haircut. damn short the stylist lopped off too much of the sides. shucks. and bought craig david's second "slicker than your average" yeah. still haven't looked at it yet. im a craig david enthusiast after having heard spanish.

i think you're searching for something new

decided to change my blogging font from verdana to arial after i kinda got tired of too much verdana. i really think orchard is getting darned boring, and so is the suntec-cityhall area. maybe i should start visiting all the neighbourhood shopping malls yeah.

cuz when the music's playing it gets to me and i know it gets you too

wanted to visit voshstudio (the cool movie memorabilia store) at suntec but didn't have time. oh well maybe next time. went to peninsula though checked with the storeowner but they didn't have anymore germany jerseys. sheesh. maybe i'll get the ljungberg one when i have some money perhaps.

just close your eyes and i'll set you free here's what you gotta do

projectwork's due tomorrow i hope everything's done. still can't really get reacquainted with the fact that i no longer have to mug my ass off. it's a pretty strange feeling. but cl ao exam is coming up so i'll have to start mugging soon. pretty much looking forward to this week- what with open house preparations and open house itself. oh yeah abit of advertising yep--

dreamweaver
RJC Open House 2003
23rd Oct
10am-5pm

there. done my bit. will be going down for filming at kallang on wednesday with the rest of the canoeists. hope it'll be good yeah. can't hardly wait to get into a k2.

now slide over here just give me a chance baby slide over here

can't wait to kick some ball either! football i meant.

well i'm bent on loving bent on loving it feels like i can't let it go
when you're inside outside outside in it feels like i'm losing control


donrichmond \\ b e n t

how the hell did we wind up like this
why weren't we able
to see the signs that we missed
and try to turn the tables

i wish you'd unclench your fists
and unpack your suitcase
lately there's been too much of this
don't think it's too late

nothing's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday i will

someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when

well i hoped that since we're here anyway
we could end up saying
things we've always needed to say
so we could end up stringing

now the story's played out like this
just like a paperback novel
let's rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a hollywood horror

nothing's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday i will

someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that

how the hell did we wind up like this
why weren't we able
to see the signs that we missed
and try to turn the tables

now the story's played out like this
just like a paperback novel
let's rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a hollywood horror

nothing's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday i will

someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
i know you're wondering when
you're the only one who knows that
i know you're wondering when

nickelback \\ someday

she got out of town
on a railway new york bound
took all except my name
another alien on broadway

there's some things in this world
you just can't change
some things you can't see
until it gets too late

baby baby baby
when all your love is gone
who will save me
from all i'm up against out in this world
maybe maybe maybe
you'll find something
that's enough to please you
but if the bright lights don't receive you
you can turn yourself around
and come on home

i got a hole in me now
i got a scar i can talk about
she keeps a picture of me
in her apartment in the city
some things in this world
they don't make sense
some things you don't need
until they leave you
and they're things that you miss

let that city take you in
let that city spit you out
let that city take you down
for god's sake turn around

\\matchbox twenty bright lights

in com lab one typing aimlessly. so decided to blog haha. it's quan's birthday today! and nine of us got her the black daytripper 25l mambo bag which she had expressed liking for. its damn nice and she likes it alot so that's really good haha :]

project work now and our group doesn't have soft copy so we can't work on it. which explains my blogging yeah. yesterday's ponning stint at home was particularly fruitful. i managed to finish geomo one, couple of donne poems and some trigo. not bad. but i always regret that i don't start earlier which sucks when i actually realise it. anyway gotta mug and then can play from oct 21st onwards so thats not too bad.

but i doubt i can get my s paper(s)? oh shit. nevermind.

spent a bomb on ear cartilage piercing. i guess that's why it was so surprisingly painless. anyway yeah and i'm living testimony to the fact that you probably wont go blind and all the hit-a-nerve-and-go-blind stories are a whole load of bullshit anyway. yep.

man i can't wait for the exams to be over. i have this entire list of things to do and buy and so on. ohh yeah one of the first things is to stay over at someone's house where there's scv and catch the bayern munich champs league matches live. yeahhh after two matches they're top of group A man. that's the way.

GO BAYERN MUNICH.

and then i'll go get my roy makaay bayern munich jersey, and my fredrik ljungberg arsenal jersey with gaya who's gonna get the thierry henry one. shit i'll be broke. life without exams would be absolutely fabulous! and maybe life with lots of money too!

well then. suffering from withdrawal symptoms of no football. sigh sometimes i wish i had more time then i'd accept the offer to train with ite bishan. but it clashes with canoeing so that kinda sucks. oh wellus.

will blog sometime again!

till then-

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i'm tired of being what you want me to be
feeling so faithless lost under the surface
don't know what you're expecting of me
put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
every step i take is another mistake to you
caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow

i've become so numb i can't feel you there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like you

can't you see that you're smothering me
holding too tightly afraid to lose control
cause everything that you thought i would be
has fallen apart right in front of you
caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
every step that i take is another mistake to you
caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow
and every second i waste is more than i can take

i've become so numb i can't feel you there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like you

and i know
i may end up failing too
but i know
you were just like me with someone disappointed in you

i've become so numb i can't feel you there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is be more like me and be less like you

i've become so numb i can't feel you there
i've become so tired so much more aware
i'm becoming this all i want to do
is everything what you want me to be

linkin park numb
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been awhile since i blogged! haha pe today was damn fun. tabletennis. played with quan and it was freaking funny hahaha. later doubles with mx and gaoshang which was even more hilarious. i think pe is simply glorious but unfortunately not many other people share my sentiments. :(

ran canal route with weiqi yesterday during one hour break. maaaann it was damn hot but we still managed to complete it in roughly half an hour which was pretty good. since im not ponning tmr i think i'll be doing weights with them again. the weights room is dominated by ruggers and canoeists. hope we don't see that chao rugger with the damn kao beh face. heard he's j3. screw him man.

mugged with canoeist guys yesterday. haha and they all drifted off after a while to play soccer. was supposed to play but had lots to mug for geog test. philip's new adidas futsal ball is damn chio yep. red+black fevernova. pretty cool.

oh yeah jus recalled what mr. reeves said on tuesday which i thought was quite funny.
"Business ethics is a contradiction. Just like military intelligence."
i'm an army loyalist so shan't comment on that. but still thought it was quite funny.

mugging mugging mugging. bad for health man its damn stressful. phy geog totally sucks la dammit. and my maths is in a shambles. its awful.

man fredrik ljungberg is damn hot larh. and i don't think he's too big in the wrong places anyway. hmmm what do you think gaya? and mx? hahahaa!

Subject: Msesed Up Ltteres.

Aoccdrnig to a rscheearch at an Elingsh uinervtisy, it deosn't mttaer in waht oredr the ltteers in a wrod are, the olny iprmoetnt tihng is taht frist and lsat ltteer is at the rghit pclae. The rset can be a toatl mses and you can sitll raed it wouthit any porbelm. Tihs is bcuseae we do not raed ervey lteter by itslef but the wrod as a wlohe.

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a hundred days had made me older
since the last time that i saw your pretty face
a thousand lights had made me colder
and i don’t think i can look at this the same

but all the miles had separate
they disappear now when i’m dreaming of your face

i’m here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time

i’m here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight it’s only you and me

the miles just keep rolling
as the people either way to say hello
i hear this life is overrated
but i hope it gets better as we go

i’m here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time

i’m here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight girl it’s only you and me

everything I know and anywhere I go
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love
and when the last one falls when it’s all said and done
it gets hard but it won’t take away my love

i’m here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time

i’m here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight girl it’s only you and me


three doors down here without you
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for the nygep sec4s... the ones i hang out with...
here's perhaps the most overused pic of all time.

but i love it.



if you're game here's another one.

hey all... who wants to watch S.W.A.T. which opens this thurs 28th aug with me? man it's a police action flick it shouldn't be bad either considering it stars colin farrell! what's not to like... heheh ;) one hell of a sexy ass bloke yeahhh.

all the good guys appearing on the silver screen right about now. there's the italian job which features mark wahlberg coming to theatres in sept... man thats a movie im definitely gonna catch. oh and yeahhh xy you know what you owe me. ;) i couldn't have said it better myself.

screwed doing draft zero for pw. i think pw sucks big time man i don't see the rationale behind it. and we've got more stuff to do now that liong's gone! aargh thank god for jiahong man we need someone with that kind of brains yeah.

going to town with jo and gaya tomorrow. haha jo's gonna get a haircut! yeah man we need a change. ponytails are oooooouuuuuutttt! man. hahaha. wonder what kinda hairstyle she's gonna get. i recommend spikes. then again would i ever recommend anything else? heheh. jo says if it turns out disastrous she's gonna make gaya cut hers too. which evoked a particularly vehement response from gaya haha.

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oceans apart day after day
and i slowly go insane
i hear your voice on the line
but it doesn't stop the pain

if i see you next to never
how can we say forever

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

i took for granted all the times
that i thought would last somehow
i hear the laughter i taste the tears
but i can't get near you now

oh can't you see it baby
you've got me going crazy

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

i wonder how we can survive
this romance
but in the end if i'm with you
i'll take the chance

wherever you go
whatever you do
i will be right here waiting for you
whatever it takes
or how my heart breaks
i will be right here waiting for you

richard marx right here waiting

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i've got a new tagboard! so blow me... ;)

roy makaay! i used to hate him because he scored a hat-trick against olli kahn... while in deportivo la coruna in champs league last yr. haha but i was appreciative of his excellent striking abilities man. and now he's turning out for fc bayern... go no.10 makaay!

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oh yay finally i know how to put graphics on the page! o joy! xinying you rock!

aiyoh both my air hockey kakis not in school today. so it was quite dismal. hahaha... today was an okay day. at first i was kinda dreading the friday timetable because of the 1hr40min gp lesson and evans! but it turned out to be some colorectal surgeon giving some talk instead so it was fine. man there was PORN on his powerpoint slides! the entire lt was taken aback! the pics of surgery were fine though. guess it jus made me rethink whether my decision to stay in arts was the right one. i mean... it was always a childhood ambition of mine to be a doctor. all the way till this year when i was faced with the arts-science dilemma. sometimes i do have regrets. ya, sam, jus like you. i wonder if i've made the right choice. but i guess i should jus make the most of what i have now, which is pretty good.

the rest of the day was pretty uneventful. michael was so kind as to lend me his translations book. if not i'd have to suffer the irish brogue and wrath of mcconnell haha. i said much more than i normally would in mrs toh's lesson. as usual the class was being rather unparticipative and i kinda felt bad so i answered some of her questions heheh. i think she's quite nice really. pw observation during pw period! man the most polite and by far the most fruitful discussion we've ever had! not bad la.

played soccer with gaya after school! called it self-training. then later renji and amos and loads of other guys came along so we played with them too. hahaha hope the soccer ball's safe with renji heheh.

but there's still one thing irking me. its been at the back of my mind ever since it started. man if you ever read this i jus wanna let you know that it was all a stupid misunderstanding and that im sorry really. i mean, it's our faults, not one more than the other. ya. im not blaming you or anything really... please dont take this the wrong way. i want things to go back to the way they were before all this shit started. i really don't want to lose a friend. please please i hope this becomes fine it's really bothering me and i can't do a thing about it.

ya jus in case you read this.

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since the moment i spotted you
like walking round with little wings on my shoes
my stomach's filled with the butterflies and it's alright
bouncing round from cloud to cloud
i got the feeling like i'm never going to come down
if i said i didn't like it then you know i'd lied

every time i try to talk to you
i get tongue-tied
seems like everything i say to you
comes out wrong and never comes out right

so i'll say why don't you and i get together
and take on the world and be together forever
heads we will and tails we'll try again
so i say why don't you and i hold each other
and fly to the moon and straight on to heaven
'cause without you they're never going to let me in
and slowly i begin to realize this is never going to end
right about the same you walk by
and i say oh here we go again

when's this ever going to break
i think i've handled more than any man can take
i'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around and it's alright
bouncing round from cloud to cloud
i got the feeling like i'm never going to come down
if i said didn't like it then you know i'd lied

santana ft. alex band why don't you and i
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this goes out to her.

you know that you don't have to leave
saying why didn't i go home with you tonight

hmm abit of a guestbook problem. i've reverted back to enetation after realizing that you have to pay 99cents for the stupid signmyguestbook.com thing heheh. hey it's not about the money it's about the trouble haha. anyway enetation's currently down so keep your comments to yourself. there.

2star course yesterday, and i am totally convinced that:
1. in 1star, you learn how not to capsize, but;
2. in 2star all the way to 5star, you find new ways to capsize.

we used dancers (again!) that merrily twirled us offcourse each time we tried to do proper strokes. it was quite boring. but fun as well. first time i've been to pasir ris sea sports club... wow the sea's damn clean la. no danger of stepping on carcasses when you're launching your boats heheh. quite cool as only the girls' team had their course there. and yeah we jus had to visit the mega playground during lunch break! heheh.

went to marche's for dinner with sheil lise mz weilin micht her friend ru da huiyuan and of course sam! not all my usual clique but it was not bad la. as usual we waited for ages to go in (talk about being fashionably LATE heheh), met at 7 and went in at 8 ha. wooaahhh the food was damn good heh. but we spent alot of time queueing. at least it aids the digestion yeah. huiyuan and i had all these wonderful ideas about what to eat but in the end we didn't eat all that much after all. not bad.

ha so nice of me! ooh i've finally added links! maybe not so computer-illiterate after all. but i don't know how to upload pics. wtf.

oh yeah and sign my guestbook yup. thanks :] i even have a new one!

man had first soccer training in like, years yesterday. gaya joined! man im damn happy haha. we had lots of fun ya. and this goes out to abs- KC was there yep. we played with him too. man he's damn cute la agreed. and real nice too. so why don't you join soccer too? ;)

walked out of school with gaya to catch a cab to fort canning green. was jus telling her how i absolutely abhor it when some asshole suddenly turns up a little distance down the road and snatches the first cab that comes along. well anyway then some asshole turned up a little distance down the road and snatched the first cab that came along. ya so we were hopping mad but at least we managed to get a cab jus after.

arrived at fort canning found the rest on mats spread out along the side. watched the first ballet. gosh it was boring! i guess ballet isn't really my kind of thing, no matter what the rest of you say. ha. so aaron and i decided to accompany andrew to buy water. and instead of merely buying water, we ended up roaming ps and pilfering free water from the dispenser outside cafe cartel. aaron had this great idea that air hockey would be decidedly more entertaining than a ballet, so we headed to the arcade for a game or two. ended up playing eight games. oh gawd. the darned pucks flew everywhere. one slid most conveniently beneath the table and i had to wiggle spreadeagled under the table. since aaron and andrew couldn't fit. shit it was damn dusty la. laughed till our sides ached. most of the goals were darned own goals haha. andrew ended up with a sore wrist from the puck smacking into it most of the time. so he can't do his gp essay HA.

we returned to the ballet after a very fulfilling hour. shit la paid $5.20 for bag deposit. we were in time for the last performance though, which andrew paid rapt attention to. i didn't though. ballet really isn't my kind of thing. aaron and i were contemplating going off to starbucks but we didn't in the end. well at least it was a good class gathering and a nice way to say bye to liong. yeah.

i have two-star course this morning. hope all goes well. i need my tan! the canoeists are all losing their tans (with the exception of carol, haha). sheesh okay.