baby won't you tell me
why there is sadness in your eyes
i don't wanna say goodbye to you
love is one big illusion i should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

you're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
i'm the one who's feeling lost right now
now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

i won't forget the way you're kissing
the feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
but i'm not the man your heart is missing
that's why you go away, i know

you were never satisfied no matter how i tried
now you wanna say goodbye to me
love is one big illusion i should try to forget
there is something left in my head

yes i know
i won't forget the way you're kissing
the feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
but i'm not the man your heart is missing
that's why you go away, i know

sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
don't know which way to go
there ain't so much to say now between us
there ain't so much for you
there ain't so much for me anymore

that's why you go away, i know

MLTR that's why you go away

HELLO I'M AT SAFTI MI LIBRARY NOW! oh man oh man this is awesome you don't know how to treasure swivel chairs and computers till you haven't seen them in a while! anyway i've got to fall in at 1500h so i really don't have much time now. hope everyone's having a great time, whether at school, work, training or whatever. life's not bad here- getting used to the military life. but oh gosh i simply abhor foot drills. they're just shit la. my 2.4 sucks now can i think i haven't run that sort of distance in like years- its either 10km long run or 1.5km. hahaha. my timing is 13.12min can die la. anyway i hope it'll improve soon.

oh those of you who'd like to see what safti MI is like, can come visit on 22nd Jan. but please submit your names and NRIC nos. to me via sms. I can only check my hp (non-camera, argh) at nights. the batt's been holding out pretty well so far.

they feed us too well here ugh think im expanding exponentially. i won't see the inside of a weights room for a long time to come (we don't have time to do other things besides our training schedule you see)and im scared to throw hand grenade cos i have sweaty palms hahaha!

seen a lot of ppl here. j4 canoeist cheng xun, national canoeist wing kuen, nj j4 canoeist daniel seng.. haha think i'll see more in the days to come!

okay my assistant platoon commander is peering at the screen as she ambles past. better go off now. 5minutes to fall in! haha. take care y'all. ;)

one last week of civilian life- then it's off to SAFTI MI for 10weeks of BMT. awesome. i can't wait. haha it's been strange telling people "hey i'm enlisting next week" because they all give me sorta puzzled looks. but i guess that's understandable. it hasn't been an easy decision to make- i've loved my time in The New Paper. some things i'll never forget, like the insane amounts of food at The Cage, Coyote3 and LotusNotes (weird computer programmes which the newspaper ppl are supposed to use), fretting over offstone times, the dreaded calls from night editors regarding finicky details of stories, counting cm of story length... man it's been fantastic. and of course the people- the interns, colleagues and supervisors.

the perennial question from us interns-
us (interns): "How long should this story be?"

the perennial answer from melvin singh-
melvin: "You should never ask a lady how old. You should never ask a guy how long."

erps.

man i'll miss it. newsy news. talking to weird divorcees. going down to yishun with deurbon chow and watching him perch precariously atop a bus stop bench just to get the perfect shot for my first byline. thanks man. my very first article. TNP office party with lotsa booze and potatoes. adeline and her kwon sang woo. my very long leisurely lunches with mag (luckily they pay us at a daily rate hahaha!).

its funny how you learn so much in a month. i think i've picked up more than when i was in school, which only goes to show what an utter waste of time math was in JC. hahaha.


***
how the hell did we wind up like this
why weren't we able
to see the signs that we missed
and try to turn the tables

i wish you'd unclench your fists
and unpack your suitcase
lately there's been too much of this
don't think it's too late

nothing's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday i will

someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
(you're the only one who knows that)
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when

well i hoped that since we're here anyway
we could end up saying
things we've always needed to say
so we could end up stringing

now the story's played out like this
just like a paperback novel
let's rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a hollywood horror

nothing's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday i will

someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
(you're the only one who knows that)
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when

nickelback [someday]
***
you really are the only one who knows that.
it'll be like this for a long time to come.