baby won't you tell me
why there is sadness in your eyes
i don't wanna say goodbye to you
love is one big illusion i should try to forget
but there is something left in my head

you're the one who set it up now you're the one to make it stop
i'm the one who's feeling lost right now
now you want me to forget every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

i won't forget the way you're kissing
the feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
but i'm not the man your heart is missing
that's why you go away, i know

you were never satisfied no matter how i tried
now you wanna say goodbye to me
love is one big illusion i should try to forget
there is something left in my head

yes i know
i won't forget the way you're kissing
the feeling's so strong were lasting for so long
but i'm not the man your heart is missing
that's why you go away, i know

sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
don't know which way to go
there ain't so much to say now between us
there ain't so much for you
there ain't so much for me anymore

that's why you go away, i know

MLTR that's why you go away

HELLO I'M AT SAFTI MI LIBRARY NOW! oh man oh man this is awesome you don't know how to treasure swivel chairs and computers till you haven't seen them in a while! anyway i've got to fall in at 1500h so i really don't have much time now. hope everyone's having a great time, whether at school, work, training or whatever. life's not bad here- getting used to the military life. but oh gosh i simply abhor foot drills. they're just shit la. my 2.4 sucks now can i think i haven't run that sort of distance in like years- its either 10km long run or 1.5km. hahaha. my timing is 13.12min can die la. anyway i hope it'll improve soon.

oh those of you who'd like to see what safti MI is like, can come visit on 22nd Jan. but please submit your names and NRIC nos. to me via sms. I can only check my hp (non-camera, argh) at nights. the batt's been holding out pretty well so far.

they feed us too well here ugh think im expanding exponentially. i won't see the inside of a weights room for a long time to come (we don't have time to do other things besides our training schedule you see)and im scared to throw hand grenade cos i have sweaty palms hahaha!

seen a lot of ppl here. j4 canoeist cheng xun, national canoeist wing kuen, nj j4 canoeist daniel seng.. haha think i'll see more in the days to come!

okay my assistant platoon commander is peering at the screen as she ambles past. better go off now. 5minutes to fall in! haha. take care y'all. ;)

one last week of civilian life- then it's off to SAFTI MI for 10weeks of BMT. awesome. i can't wait. haha it's been strange telling people "hey i'm enlisting next week" because they all give me sorta puzzled looks. but i guess that's understandable. it hasn't been an easy decision to make- i've loved my time in The New Paper. some things i'll never forget, like the insane amounts of food at The Cage, Coyote3 and LotusNotes (weird computer programmes which the newspaper ppl are supposed to use), fretting over offstone times, the dreaded calls from night editors regarding finicky details of stories, counting cm of story length... man it's been fantastic. and of course the people- the interns, colleagues and supervisors.

the perennial question from us interns-
us (interns): "How long should this story be?"

the perennial answer from melvin singh-
melvin: "You should never ask a lady how old. You should never ask a guy how long."

erps.

man i'll miss it. newsy news. talking to weird divorcees. going down to yishun with deurbon chow and watching him perch precariously atop a bus stop bench just to get the perfect shot for my first byline. thanks man. my very first article. TNP office party with lotsa booze and potatoes. adeline and her kwon sang woo. my very long leisurely lunches with mag (luckily they pay us at a daily rate hahaha!).

its funny how you learn so much in a month. i think i've picked up more than when i was in school, which only goes to show what an utter waste of time math was in JC. hahaha.


***
how the hell did we wind up like this
why weren't we able
to see the signs that we missed
and try to turn the tables

i wish you'd unclench your fists
and unpack your suitcase
lately there's been too much of this
don't think it's too late

nothing's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday i will

someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
(you're the only one who knows that)
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when

well i hoped that since we're here anyway
we could end up saying
things we've always needed to say
so we could end up stringing

now the story's played out like this
just like a paperback novel
let's rewrite an ending that fits
instead of a hollywood horror

nothing's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday i will

someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when
(you're the only one who knows that)
someday, somehow
gonna make it alright but not right now
i know you're wondering when

nickelback [someday]
***
you really are the only one who knows that.
it'll be like this for a long time to come.

today is second byline day! "Novena Square: Still not in the pink of health". -yawn- encountered some nasty figures when we went about novena to get stuff for our article. everyone, please boycott the bubble tea store there. the uncle is one Nasty Nut.

my hair is intensely disgusting. i really ought to get something done about it soon. dropped by rjc bishan today following the Big Move! man the campus is enormous. mag and i found ourselves standing in the middle of the concourse wondering where all the space came from. it's really quite nice, and i gleefully spied the yong tau foo stall so maybe i'll go over for lunch one day.

anyway there was a sinfully rich chocolate cake from cedele bakery depot at the cage today, and i'm quite sure i'm slowly expanding as i type this. what decadence! there's always so much good stuff at the cage! it's crazy. i think i'm going to triple in size, which is really not what i'd intended to happen.

my legs are just going to drop off oh dear 10km everyday is really quite a startlingly new experience. First 3km round is very nice. 2nd one is entirely loathsome, especially the stupid gravel tracks. then i always have horrendous stitches so i'll stop to touch my toes. then i'll hear someone pounding up the boardwalk furiously behind me so i will then hurriedly scamper on in apparent agony because it really isn't good to be caught slacking. 3rd round i'm like resigned to my fate so i'll just potter on with a fake plastered grin on my face and wait for cheryl to overtake me (which seems to always be the case).

anyway in total i run like forty plus km a week so im quite happy with that. especially since i havent been running for all of five months and so my current condition could have been worse. at least it isn't That bad, heh heh.

you should let me love you
let me be the one to give you everything you want and need
baby good love and protection
make me your selection
show you the way love's supposed to be
baby you should let me love you, love you, love you

let me love you mario

OKAY EVERYONE PLEASE READ THE NEW PAPER TOMORROW (WED 22 DEC 2004) BECAUSE MY FIRST ARTICLE IS GOING TO BE PUBLISHED.

I THINK THE TITLE IS "BIKE TROUBLE IN THE NEIGHBOURHOOD".
OEI STOP YAWNING LA IT'S REALLY QUITE INTERESTING CAN. AND I HAD TO KEEP REWORKING IT SO THAT IT WASN'T TOO ERUDITE HAHAHAHAHA.

AFTER THAT YOU CAN TELL ME WHAT A MARVELOUS PIECE OF BULLSHIT IT WAS.
IF YOU REALLY DON'T LIKE IT PLEASE EMAIL ME AT fengyi@sph.com.sg
IF YOU REALLY LIKE IT PLEASE EMAIL ME AS WELL.

SORRY GAO SHANG COULDN'T DRAW ANY INSPIRATION FROM YOUR MARVELOUS ASSETS THAT WOULD HAVE BEEN OF USE IN MY STORY. NEXT TIME MAYBE.

yep uploaded some photos finally. not my entire collection cos i got fed up after trying both dotphoto and imagestation to no avail so i just posted them on my blog. click to enlarge yeah. (which is what gs will do to the pictures of herself in the hope that it will inflate her assets). anyway there's an assortment- mainly from farewell (mt.sinai & batch of '04) and gradnight. if you wanna catch me in a dress here's your chance so grab it with both hands and scroll down.

till the next time!

sending huilin (our hero) off to philippines for canoe c'ships.  

it's just a love-hate relationship here. but whatever it is, pal, i'll always be here so remember that.  

darling quan, me and gaya :) 

me quan jo mx and gayathrie pootie. 

my favorite hangout. yours too? 

these are the girl canoers.  

porn-star-turned-maniac 

sis' bday party and im so in love with lil orange girl she's just damn cute la.  

me sharon chiam alvintan 

prom king & queen (both well-deserved) 

raffles canoeing batch of '04. 

i smashed my nokia last night by throwing it onto the floor cos the buttons wouldn't work and in the process the lcd screen screwed up so im back to using my lagging ericsson. shit. its time to buy new phone anyway. but i cant decide between splurging on the nokia 7270 (utterly desirable i say) and waiting for it to debut in the singapore market or go the cheaper and more immediate route and get the panasonic x400 (functional, quite chio la, has a camera, ought to be good enough) which i can get at a low rate right now. or even the siemens sl65 (comes with free mp3 player hahahaha im a sucker for freebies) but i dont like the sliding mechanism im quite sure ill spoil it in no time at all.






ok maybe i cant wait anymore so ill just get the panasonic one and go buy stereo headphones with the money i coulda have spent on buying the pretty 7270.

anyway yesterday i walked the cityhall/ esplanade/ merlion/ fullerton/ rafflesplace/ boatquay/ clarkequay place a total of two times so that makes it three times this week i've walked there haha getting damn sian of the place already oh well. but not bad la i talked to three different people about very different things during the walks so that was quite cool.

the song that i recommend now is by ciara and missy elliot- 1,2 step. the music vid is pretty nice can check it out at yahoo.com. missy looks like an overstuffed teddy bear in the vid but ciara more than makes up for it man shes damn hot la come here now ciara i want you.

yep will be going off now blog sometime else argh back to work tmr and court case in the morning (not mine).

this thing right here
is lettin all the ladies know
what guys talk about
you know
the finer things in life
hahaha
check it out

ooh that dress so scandalous
and ya know another nigga couldn't handle it
see ya shakin that thang like who's da ish
with a look in ya eye so devilish

uh
ya like to dance at all the hip hop spots
and ya cruise to the crews like connect da dots
not just urban she likes the pop
cuz she was livin la vida loca

she had dumps like a truck truck truck
thighs like what what what
baby move your butt butt butt
uh
i think to sing it again
she had dumps like a truck truck truck
thighs like what what what
all night long
let me see that thong

i like it when the beat goes da na da na
baby make your booty go da na da na
girl i know you wanna show da na da na
that thong th thong thong thong
i like it when the beat goes da na da na
baby make your booty go da na da na
girl i know you wanna show da na da na
that thong th thong thong thong

that girl so scandalous
and i know another nigga couldn't handle it
and she shakin that thang like who's da ish
with a look in her eye so devilish

uh
she like to dance at all the hip hop spots
and she cruise to the crews like connect da dots
not just urban she likes the pop
cuz she was livin la vida loca

sisqo \the thong song